Big Fat Mareanie

I didn't know that From Hedorium To Eternity was the season 8 premiere. What a weird fucking episode. Whole episode flashback with no bearing on the rest of the series, Ben and Gwen know Zs'Skayr's name, they have a token sassy black friend who's along for the ride, Kevin is there too for incidental reasons and not a bad guy even though this took place before Servantis made him a Manchurian Agent, Zs'Skayr has his grim reaper appearance 5 years too early in the timeline, And Zs'Skayr killed the guy he was using as a disguise by snapping his neck on-screen. But this is when we get the absolutely stellar character designs for civilian Ectonurites. On par with the Transylians in season 5.

Checking in on my tarantulas and my A. bicoloratum sling molted, my P. subfusca molted, and my G. rosea is on her back as we speak.

It turns out I wasn't just coping and the first act of Obsession actually splices together two different takes, one where Nikki is into Bear and one where she isn't, leaving her actual feelings ambiguous on purpose. Which fits with the recurring theme of the film where Nikki is treated as a blank slate for people to project their imagined versions of her onto. Her feelings towards Bear are not addressed and kept open to interpretation because, for the purposes of the narrative, they do not matter. The only thing that matters within the film is how Bear feels and what he does to (regardless of intent) steal that kind of freedom and autonomy away from Nikki. The whole idea is that Nikki never gets to have a choice or say in the matter.

I failed. I have all the holes in my aquarium's lid plugged with rubber foam, but it's too little too late. I only found the poor thing's remains yesterday when I pulled Ebony's tank out to clean it. I was so distraught, I didn't even turn the snake maintenance into a social media post. I simply did what I had to do, buried the dead caecilian in my garden, and was in mourning the rest of the day. I had even planned on handling Hannibal, but instead I just locked him inside his hide while I fucked around in there. I don't even need to do that, he's actually chill unless I am trying to handle him.