Avalon Elizabeth Shaffer

…sure.

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Y’can’t lose someone you never had Avalon. 

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He’s doing good. He’s in Wicked right now, and he’s dating a guy who is in Lion King. He’s a goofball. He offered me to stay at his place, but he lives in a two bedroom apartment in the upper west side with four other guys and that was not something I wanted to get myself involved in. 

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This house is even bigger than Seymour described it to be…

Literally, just leave me the fuck alone. I hate my life, and there’s nothing you can do about it. Okay?

If I’m honest, it makes me nervous to think about. You say you haven’t booked ‘em yet, but I know you will. I just don’t want you to go away and realize how much better everything is and never come back to me. And if that makes me selfish, then so be it. 

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Grey, yeah. The food’ll probably be a little better in different cities, and the sights too, and performing for that many people is supposed to be this unreal feeling, but no one is going to be better than you are for me. C’mon. We’ve been through Hell and back together. This is just another exciting mountain to get over. Well, exciting for me, not so much exciting for you. Can we just take it a day at a time? See if I even get booked first?

Yeah, we can cross that bridge when we get to it…………..agh, no. I wanna talk about it now. Please.

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Well, okay...things are going great at Apollo still and you know I’m doing other little workshops here and there, but, I don’t know. I’ve just always wanted more. A tour isn’t forever either, I mean, I think we could do it. It’d be cool for you to come visit me and for us to see all these different cities together. I don’t know. I didn’t even book the damn thing yet! What’re your thoughts? 

I, uhm. I’m not surprised ‘cause you’re amazing, but I don’t really know what to say…. I know it’s selfish to ask you not to go, but…. I really don’t want you to go. 

It’s not set in stone yet, just...a high possibility. But, you know, maybe I shouldn’t even worry us until it happens. If it does we can talk about it more then, right?

Uh, sure… This doesn’t sound good, though. 

I’ve been auditioning for some tours for next year...you know, as a back-up dancer, and I’ve got two really good callbacks...one for Justin Bieber and one for Pitbull. My agency really thinks I’m going to land one, if not both, and it’s exciting, but being away from you for awhile...it’s making me want to say no. I mean, nothing’s official yet. So...maybe I should just start to worry when it is?

It’s just a root beer. I swear to god. 

I believe you, babe. 

Oh yeah. We did everything as a family, and we all loved it. Even Colin if you can believe it. When Dad was deployed, it was harder for Mom, so when he died… It really took a toll on all of us. Colin especially. It was like all the love we had in the family died the day Dad died. And I had to watch Colin get sadder and sadder until he disappeared, and after that… Mom just couldn’t take it. I found her that morning… 

Oh, Noa, I’m sorry. It felt like that after my brother died, and then really, really like that after my dad died. We were all in the kitchen when my brother accidentally killed himself. It was the worst thing I’ve ever seen.