noble;

Yeah, yeah. I like that. A dragonfly. Just black and white or with color? Y’know, I’m scared of them in real life though. They buzz so damn loud.

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Just black ‘n white. 

Grey, yeah. The food’ll probably be a little better in different cities, and the sights too, and performing for that many people is supposed to be this unreal feeling, but no one is going to be better than you are for me. C’mon. We’ve been through Hell and back together. This is just another exciting mountain to get over. Well, exciting for me, not so much exciting for you. Can we just take it a day at a time? See if I even get booked first?

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...sure.

Thanks. I guess I just don’t quite feel like it yet. I mean, I’m excited, but just really nervous still. Um, can I ask you something? 

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Sure, anything Dyl. 

Nah, that’s too easy. I’m not that bad. How about a cool mountain or door or words or something like that? 

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How ‘bout a dragonfly? 

Well, okay…things are going great at Apollo still and you know I’m doing other little workshops here and there, but, I don’t know. I’ve just always wanted more. A tour isn’t forever either, I mean, I think we could do it. It’d be cool for you to come visit me and for us to see all these different cities together. I don’t know. I didn’t even book the damn thing yet! What’re your thoughts? 

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If I’m honest, it makes me nervous to think about. You say you haven’t booked ‘em yet, but I know you will. I just don’t want you to go away and realize how much better everything is and never come back to me. And if that makes me selfish, then so be it. 

Well…don’t cut back until you’re ready or whatever.

Yeah, yeah, for sure! What’re you thinking? It can’t be anything too crazy to start. Tiny thinks I’mma be shitty for a little bit, but just a little bit.

It’s not set in stone yet, just…a high possibility. But, you know, maybe I shouldn’t even worry us until it happens. If it does we can talk about it more then, right?

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I love you too. Yes! Please come? I’d love to have familiar faces there. I’m so flippin’ nervous for some reason! I think ‘cause a lot of celebrities are going and I definitely don’t feel cool enough to be performing.

I’ve been auditioning for some tours for next year…you know, as a back-up dancer, and I’ve got two really good callbacks…one for Justin Bieber and one for Pitbull. My agency really thinks I’m going to land one, if not both, and it’s exciting, but being away from you for awhile…it’s making me want to say no. I mean, nothing’s official yet. So…maybe I should just start to worry when it is?

Who else is giving you news? Wait, nevermind. I wanna just tell you. I got asked to do three Jingle Balls this year. Two in California, and one in New York City. The one in New York is at Madison Square Garden. I’m going to be performing at Madison Square Garden! 

You’re sobriety thing going good, by the way? 

And I’m alright. I dunno. Just like…chillin’, I guess. Tiny’s been giving me some tattoo lessons. I may tat one of my friends next weekend.

Yeah. Been in meetings five days a week like doctor recommended. Trying to cut back to three a week. 

You don’t have to be paranoid. We all know you’re doing good. 

Hey. I got some exciting, scary news.

Oh, no. Not you too. Okay, okay. Let me get comfy. Hit me with it, Dyllie. 

I know, man. You don’t really strike me as a beer drinker anyways.

Fuck you. I am too a beer guy. 

I believe you, babe. 

Hey, can we talk about something real quick?

Uh, sure... This doesn’t sound good, though.