Health and Fitness☀️☕️ Body Positivity and Tea

Sometimes it’s difficult to see yourself clearly. I have a few telltale signs when I’m off track or unhappy. The first is tea. I haven’t had a real cup of tea in about 6 months. For me, tea is life. The benefits of tea for weight loss and overall health can not be overstated. Tea is the wonder drug we’ve all been searching for. It’s my thing and I’ll drink it forever. But I haven’t been (until this morning). The second thing is... I don’t sing. When I’m happy I sing ALL THE TIME. Not just car and shower karaoke either. From the countless songs I’ve made up for my dog (with titles like “Oh! My nugget!” And “Little old lady face”) to the diddy I made up about how mustard is the very best condiment for a turkey sandwich... I sing when I’m happy, and not like ‘over the moon’ happy just generally good. I can’t remember the last time I sang, even along with music. Until last night. My mother was over last night with my two younger sisters (13 and 11 both autistic) and we were sitting around by candlelight (for earth hour) and we made up this game where we each take turns singing a bit of a song and the others had to guess the name, and it hit me. I’m ready to get back on track. In the last 6 months my father became ill and passed away (I’ve been living with and caring for him since the November before last) and my husband and I both lost our jobs within a week of each other. It was a cacophony of dispair for so many more reasons than the obvious (but that’s a whole different blog). Yesterday I woke up without the usual fog. I wanted nothing more than to deep clean my house. So I did, I EVEN DUSTED MY CEILING Y’ALL. Today all I want to do is clean out my cabinets and fridge and get rid of all the bullshit, and go grocery shopping. So I am. I’m ready to get my life back together. Throughout this trudge of mine I’ve gone from 200lbs, swollen and constantly sick, to 154lbs and glowing radiant health, to the shitstorm of fuck-it-all depression and back up to 185lbs. I eat my feelings, I know and accept this about myself and I know I’m not alone in that either. So, I’m taking full advantage of my little epiphany. This slight shift in awareness is all I needed. I’ve done this all before and I’m doing it again. Hopefully for the last time.