breakdown at barnes & noble again because there are so many hobbies and skills and artworks and and arenas of thought and music and movies and i can’t do all of the things i think would be worthwhile to do or think about or become competent in even if i had a million years and i probably only have like 50 or so if i get really lucky and i can’t do the things i want to do NOW i just don’t have it in me and i don’t know if i ever will!!














