Lowkey in the 2spirit torment nexus like. I don't want to have to cut off my hair to Be More Androgynous. I might just have to kill all white people instead
Gender is a social construct -> my dysphoria is socially informed, I only feel dysphoria when I'm 1. Not dissociating and 2. Interacting with other people -> I do not intrinsically see my long hair as gendered, but I know other people, most everyone on the street, cannot see me -> this gets increasingly frustrating while I actually *try* to present more androgynously rather than simply Plausibly Deniable -> am I going to have to explain my intergenerational trauma re: forcibly cutting Native people's hair to the 80% white website
The force/coercion to conform to white standards of gender presentation is an aspect of genocide & I just feel like a lot of you don't Get that. Like this isn't even strictly a trans problem this is just an ndn problem. I've been feeling increasingly that my gender is just that I'm an ndn at this point & this is why I've been leaning into the 2spirit label more than genderfluid while both equally apply to me. "Genderfluid" is my english gender it's what I call the same fucking thing* in white people gender framework terminology
*2spirit identity is an extremely broad umbrella term I'm not speaking for everyone
The thing is like it isn't just about gender our hair is so tied to cultural identity & spirituality & etc etc etc. It's an extension of the self, our souls, our memories/thoughts/dreams etc etc etc. We cut our hair when we grieve; losing people like losing a limb. Individualist white american culture doesn't know about real grief, either, but I digress. Again there are like 500 different kinds of ndns I'm only speaking broadly & For Myself. Anyway I might have to kill all white people
Long violent history of colonizers cutting Native men's hair specifically as an act of violence -> every time someone misgenders me in public I feel like I'm in a saw trap
And by "history" let it be known this was happening, forcibly, as recently as like. The 60s. And through coercion Right Now. To Me Currently
