introspection and such

i adore him but lord sometimes he says the stupidest shit that makes me literally stop in my tracks

clocked in 3 hours worth of a appstore game today, this unemployment life is so worth it

today i got cancelled on for the 2nd time this week. not having other options to hang out with people other then family, is so embarrassing. so having them cancel is like solitary confinement 🫩

went to the park today, i’ve been spending a insane amount of time there recently just working under a tree being attacked by wasps. it’s lovely, i feel like a fairy

fucking fighting a fly rn, i genuinely will never recover from this fuckass fear

it’s hard to feel motivated to do work when all i want to do is visit the gardens again

its weird how much control i give up to my problems. i wonder what little me would have thought if she knew she finally escaped her hell and got her freedom just to give it up to herself as a obsessive compulsive adult