O' Captain, My Captain

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I'm a fuck face, a jerk, and a total schmuck. Jimbo Limbo is missing and I have posted several posters concerning his disappearance; it's been weeks, holy shit. Hopefully the fucker turns up sometime soon and not after the next Star Trek movie premiere.  And to those people who even wants to roleplay with my dirtbag Jim and me--I'm truly sorry. I can't right now. And it's killing my insides, honestly. I deserve a punch to the face. But you can give most of them to Jimbo.  Idk if u guys even miss me or my horrible replies to awesome people's threads. But hey, I'm cool with that. Chill. I don't feel sad or anythin', but I know there are people who do care for me, and there are lots of them. Thanks a lot guys--sorry for the dropped threads, though.  And to the new followers, feel free to see my threads instead of my pathetic excuse of an RP blog. c:

Live Long and Prosper, you guys.

Also, call me if you see Jimbo Limbo wandering around.

I'm okay guys. I had it a little rough. Thank you for your kind words and concerns about my well being. Mm, you guys are so nice and awesome. Keep up, and if this ever happens to you too, I'll make sure I'll repay your kindness; your efforts will not go to a waste.

And of course, there are a lot of messages in my askbox, but I'm too tired--not lazy--to reply to all of them, so instead I'll put the names here, and receive my utmost gratitude for keeping up with me and cheering me on. You guys are the best. It's kind of overwhelming that most of you are not familiar to me, nor in any way interacted with, but thank you. Very much. For everything. I will treasure these messages and read them in case the same thing happens again.

If you don't see your name here, I'm sorry. I gave you my reply, thus your ask to me came back to you. But if ever, still--thank you.

scottiish, xmiaoreleo, queerasheckie, ifangirltolive, rex-stellarum, thesassyfirebender, enterprise-kai-rogers, oswald-fortheos-win, goddessofvulcanbackup, tantumossa, fxmily, kirkstarfleet, jackson0frost, curearainyday, reddesilets, peregrinxs, riolozhikaik, and all those supportive anons and people that have endured me during this episode.

Thank you. You guys have saved my life, and I'm indebted to all of you. You don't know how much you did for me.

oh, thank you. i--i... i--mom is angry. she wants me to sleep because i have school tomorrow. she doesn't know.

Don’t just don’t you have so much to live for, do something that makes you happy, and if nothing makes you happy; trying something new. (:

new?

there's so little time

but--school. im trapped. with people. with him. with my close friends.should i... should i isolate myself for a while?i can do this. i can. i will. i've gone through these before. i'll just... not do it directly through my heart.a small scratch. in my hand----

Well don’t let him ruin it! Don’t let him do that to you! Hes an ass, don’t let some stupid guy do that to you!

oh go he's not stupid. he's not a bad guy like that. he was unintentionally dragged by my disorder.

haha. he's nothing. he just made it worse. 

this started this week.

something that makes me...happy?

there's nothing.

i-- there's nothing.

im trying 

im trying, dear.

Don’t just take it easy, the next couple of days; talk to someone who will listen to you, you don’t need to. Don’t be scared you have family and friends who care about you, and if your a christian like myself; gods there for you.

i did tell my ex, but he shrugged it away. idk. maybe he did think like that before bcus of me. im horrible. 

i brought a dress today. watched tfios. and had super lot of fun with my mom. and he just ruined half of it. i guess it's my fault too. i broke up with him. but i didn't tell him exactly why.

i'm agnostic. but my family are adventists. i don't know.

DON’T!!!! Don’t do its honestly not worth it, there will be better days ahead of you, you have so much to live for and do with your life, don’t kill yourself, you have one life and one life only, there’s honestly no second chances, so don’t please.

haha..

i'm sorry.

im just unstable right now

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This is so unsual i mean i don't usually think like this but hahaim doing something stupid, i know. i love you too, all of you. don't feel sorry, you didn't do anything wrong. nor all of you.

im just--unstable. scared. haha.

i can't. guys. i can't.