Aurelia's Musings...

"I was just curious" she shrugged "I mean kids seem to like you, you'd be a great parent"

“We have a while before we have to name it then.”

“Well you’re the one that brought it up”

“I have a couple ideas, there’s Rose and Celeste and Maggie.”

“Not a chance” she laughed “so you think it’s a girl?”

“I do,” Ferre nodded, “Jane, Emily, May.”

“It’s not anything yet, it’s a peanut sized ball of cells” she laughed “do all the names you like have to be so American?”

“Oh, how about Marie, Claudette, Monique, Cressida?”

“Alright no naming children for you, not even your own”

“I’ll do some research and get back to you,” Ferre smiled, “Violette, Anastasia, Arielle.”

“We don’t even know it’s a girl yet, it could be a boy you know and even then you don’t get to pick the name” she grinned

“Boy names are cool too!” Ferre said, “Michel, Jules, Henri, Robert, Stephen.”

“Stop you’re like the worst book of baby names ever! This is going to be a long 7 months”

“Or you could name it after me,” Ferre teased.

“I would but that’s a lot to live up to you know” she smiled

“Yes it is,” Ferre teased. “Ooh! Willow?”

“Really stop with the names, at least until after the first scan. No getting attached at all until then, alright?”

“Yes, ma'am,” Ferre pouted playfully.

She smiled and leaned against him "let's just focus on moving my stuff to your apartment for now and we can get excited after the scan when we know everything is alright"

Send me “You were supposed to be mine.” for my muse’s reaction

“I missed you, too.” He hugged her back.

“I’m just glad to be back, I love spending time with my family but it’s quite tiring” she smiled

“I wish I could say the same. My family doesn’t want to see me.”

“Then next time you should come with me, I’m sure they wouldn’t mind”

He nodded. “Yeah. That would be nice.”

“I’ll let you know the next time I’m going home, you’ll like it there”

“It would be nice to have a family for once.”

“Well I’m sure they’ll love you”

He smiled. “Yeah. I mean, you do, and you’re tough to impress,” he teased.

"It's very difficult not to like you" she smiled

“But the only way to have fun in a bar is to drink, and I don’t do that.”

“Now that’s not true at all” she sighed “why don’t we have one non alcoholic drink here and if it’s still your idea of hell we can go somewhere else”

He saw people snorting crushed up Xanax. He tensed. “No, let’s just go somewhere else. I can’t be around that.” He pointed to the people.

“Alright” she sighed, walking back outside “so what now?”

“I don’t know. I just couldn’t be around people snorting Xanax. Not this soon after I got clean. Not when I relapse a few times a year.”

“It’s fine, I’m sure we can find something else to do”

“Okay. Thanks.” He smiled.

“I’d rather not make you go somewhere that makes you uncomfortable anyway”

“I wasn’t uncomfortable. I just knew it wasn’t a good idea for me to be around that.”

“Well either way I’m sure we can find somewhere better”

“Okay.” He smiled.

“I still think you should decide where we go, I don’t know what would be best ”

“The park?”

“Sounds good” she smiled

He smiled and led the way.

“I like the park at this time, it’s quiet” she sighed

“Me too.”

“I’m sorry about earlier, I didn’t think it through” she murmured, moving to sit on the grass

“It’s fine. You didn’t know there were going to be people snorting Xanax.” He sat next to her.

“I’m still sorry though” she sighed, leaning against him.

“It’s not your fault.”

“I know but it’s still not what I wanted to happen”

“I didn’t want it to happen either.”

"Which is why I'm sorry" she sighed wrapping her arms around him "I'm proud of you though, it couldn't have been easy for you but you didn't let it get to you, you just left"

“We have a while before we have to name it then.”

“Well you’re the one that brought it up”

“I have a couple ideas, there’s Rose and Celeste and Maggie.”

“Not a chance” she laughed “so you think it’s a girl?”

“I do,” Ferre nodded, “Jane, Emily, May.”

“It’s not anything yet, it’s a peanut sized ball of cells” she laughed “do all the names you like have to be so American?”

“Oh, how about Marie, Claudette, Monique, Cressida?”

“Alright no naming children for you, not even your own”

“I’ll do some research and get back to you,” Ferre smiled, “Violette, Anastasia, Arielle.”

“We don’t even know it’s a girl yet, it could be a boy you know and even then you don’t get to pick the name” she grinned

“Boy names are cool too!” Ferre said, “Michel, Jules, Henri, Robert, Stephen.”

“Stop you’re like the worst book of baby names ever! This is going to be a long 7 months”

“Or you could name it after me,” Ferre teased.

“I would but that’s a lot to live up to you know” she smiled

“Yes it is,” Ferre teased. “Ooh! Willow?”

"Really stop with the names, at least until after the first scan. No getting attached at all until then, alright?"

Send “You're hiding something from me” for my muse’s reaction

“But the only way to have fun in a bar is to drink, and I don’t do that.”

“Now that’s not true at all” she sighed “why don’t we have one non alcoholic drink here and if it’s still your idea of hell we can go somewhere else”

He saw people snorting crushed up Xanax. He tensed. “No, let’s just go somewhere else. I can’t be around that.” He pointed to the people.

“Alright” she sighed, walking back outside “so what now?”

“I don’t know. I just couldn’t be around people snorting Xanax. Not this soon after I got clean. Not when I relapse a few times a year.”

“It’s fine, I’m sure we can find something else to do”

“Okay. Thanks.” He smiled.

“I’d rather not make you go somewhere that makes you uncomfortable anyway”

“I wasn’t uncomfortable. I just knew it wasn’t a good idea for me to be around that.”

“Well either way I’m sure we can find somewhere better”

“Okay.” He smiled.

“I still think you should decide where we go, I don’t know what would be best ”

“The park?”

“Sounds good” she smiled

He smiled and led the way.

“I like the park at this time, it’s quiet” she sighed

“Me too.”

“I’m sorry about earlier, I didn’t think it through” she murmured, moving to sit on the grass

“It’s fine. You didn’t know there were going to be people snorting Xanax.” He sat next to her.

“I’m still sorry though” she sighed, leaning against him.

“It’s not your fault.”

"I know but it's still not what I wanted to happen"

“I missed you, too.” He hugged her back.

“I’m just glad to be back, I love spending time with my family but it’s quite tiring” she smiled

“I wish I could say the same. My family doesn’t want to see me.”

“Then next time you should come with me, I’m sure they wouldn’t mind”

He nodded. “Yeah. That would be nice.”

“I’ll let you know the next time I’m going home, you’ll like it there”

“It would be nice to have a family for once.”

"Well I'm sure they'll love you"

“We have a while before we have to name it then.”

“Well you’re the one that brought it up”

“I have a couple ideas, there’s Rose and Celeste and Maggie.”

“Not a chance” she laughed “so you think it’s a girl?”

“I do,” Ferre nodded, “Jane, Emily, May.”

“It’s not anything yet, it’s a peanut sized ball of cells” she laughed “do all the names you like have to be so American?”

“Oh, how about Marie, Claudette, Monique, Cressida?”

“Alright no naming children for you, not even your own”

“I’ll do some research and get back to you,” Ferre smiled, “Violette, Anastasia, Arielle.”

“We don’t even know it’s a girl yet, it could be a boy you know and even then you don’t get to pick the name” she grinned

“Boy names are cool too!” Ferre said, “Michel, Jules, Henri, Robert, Stephen.”

“Stop you’re like the worst book of baby names ever! This is going to be a long 7 months”

“Or you could name it after me,” Ferre teased.

"I would but that's a lot to live up to you know" she smiled

“We have a while before we have to name it then.”

“Well you’re the one that brought it up”

“I have a couple ideas, there’s Rose and Celeste and Maggie.”

“Not a chance” she laughed “so you think it’s a girl?”

“I do,” Ferre nodded, “Jane, Emily, May.”

“It’s not anything yet, it’s a peanut sized ball of cells” she laughed “do all the names you like have to be so American?”

“Oh, how about Marie, Claudette, Monique, Cressida?”

“Alright no naming children for you, not even your own”

“I’ll do some research and get back to you,” Ferre smiled, “Violette, Anastasia, Arielle.”

“We don’t even know it’s a girl yet, it could be a boy you know and even then you don’t get to pick the name” she grinned

“Boy names are cool too!” Ferre said, “Michel, Jules, Henri, Robert, Stephen.”

"Stop you're like the worst book of baby names ever! This is going to be a long 7 months"

“We have a while before we have to name it then.”

“Well you’re the one that brought it up”

“I have a couple ideas, there’s Rose and Celeste and Maggie.”

“Not a chance” she laughed “so you think it’s a girl?”

“I do,” Ferre nodded, “Jane, Emily, May.”

“It’s not anything yet, it’s a peanut sized ball of cells” she laughed “do all the names you like have to be so American?”

“Oh, how about Marie, Claudette, Monique, Cressida?”

“Alright no naming children for you, not even your own”

“I’ll do some research and get back to you,” Ferre smiled, “Violette, Anastasia, Arielle.”

"We don't even know it's a girl yet, it could be a boy you know and even then you don't get to pick the name" she grinned

“We have a while before we have to name it then.”

“Well you’re the one that brought it up”

“I have a couple ideas, there’s Rose and Celeste and Maggie.”

“Not a chance” she laughed “so you think it’s a girl?”

“I do,” Ferre nodded, “Jane, Emily, May.”

“It’s not anything yet, it’s a peanut sized ball of cells” she laughed “do all the names you like have to be so American?”

“Oh, how about Marie, Claudette, Monique, Cressida?”

"Alright no naming children for you, not even your own"