auderlla

༺♡༻ welcome to my blog ♡

౨ৎ 16 • she/her • slavic

౨ৎ i support women's rights and women's wrongs

౨ৎ i fucking love skyrim

౨ৎ leo ☼ • virgo ☾ • virgo rising, born under a waxing crescent moon

౨ৎ astrology, tarot, deities, spellwork, manifestation, folklore and all things mystical ♡, pagan-leaning spiritual girl

౨ৎ obsessed with yandere simulator, skyrim, game of thrones, doki doki literature club, anime, manga, visual novels, knights, skins UK, horror movies and anything weird or obsessive

౨ৎ my favorite anime oat is the future diary

౨ৎ i listen to sleeping with sirens, pierce the veil, love letter, her words kill, lucy bedroque, nettspend, 2hollis, she wants revenge, slipknot, atreyu, current joys, kempachii, nate sib, lil peep, puresnow, fakemink, nine vicious

౨ৎ i mostly post about games, music, anime, manga, obsessive shit, edits, and whatever i'm hyperfixated on at the moment

౨ৎ always looking for mutuals ♡ i love my bf

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i get angry because i love you and care too much but you think i'm a bitch

"i wish i had a crazy gf" and "i want you to be obsessed with me" until i'm crying because you looked at another girl or changing everything about myself for you to love me instead of acting like nikki from obsession

i see tomorrow’s goodbye in today’s hello

seeing the worst in people keeps me “safe” but so lonely

i see red flags in everyone even when they’re being nice

can’t make friends because i either overshare or shut down completely but it's all i've ever wanted

i talk way too much because i'm awkward and then watch people get distant

"i understand you don't worry" but you don't know how it feels to hate yourself and want to tear apart your own flesh because you hate the way your own father looked at you as a child, tearing you apart for the way you looked and how your body was and resenting you for it and telling you that you were not a child born out of love.

my father's conditional love taught me love always has a price

he gaslit me so much i still think my emotions aren't real or valid

i hate when people say mental health isn't important. you don't know how it feels to have chronic emptiness every single day like a void that simply cannot be filled. the feeling that nothing will make you happy and the things that do make you happy are fleeting. but you crave the feeling every single day like a moth to a flame. except the flame burns out and can only come back when someone lights it for you.

i want to brutally murder my father for all the pain he has caused us

i feel empty even when people stay