1. Extreme relief while drunk. Many bad thoughts finally go away and my mind gets so quiet it’s the best.

2. Days of overthinking the things I did or said low key wanting to erase myself from earth to get rid of the blame and thought spirals.

I’ve been repeating myself many times to other people. I tell the same stories without realizing it and reaffirm some details here and there. I noticed that they usually are things that bring me comfort, things that I want to keep in mind. It’s mostly about accomplishments. For exemple: telling people many times that I finished my research.

But it’s starting to worry me because it’s been happening way too much and I’m scared I sound a bit crazy to other people… specially to the ones who don’t know that I have ocd.

I was wondering if this has anything to do with my ocd at all (I think so) or if it’s something else.