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not to say that i disagree with this hc because i don’t, but is there an in-canon reason so many people hc simon as an engineer besides that it makes a nice adrian/rocky parallel (when you hc adrian as a scientist)? i’m trying to remember if he did anything engineering-y in the movie but the most i can think of is him unsuccessfully taping down the camera button LMAO
giving simon wormhole-opening powers so grace can send an instant probe once they're on erid and inflict more psychic damage on the og petrova task force
The attention to pen nibbling did not go unnoticed. Codependency for the win!!! I am also a lover of trauma bonding.
I adore how you've kept Simon's need for conserving resources and assumption that he will be denied the basics. Too often, I've seen writers let him forget those habits immediately after meeting Grace. The way you've kept it and tied it to his deep set religious trauma... Perfection. From a fellow victim of organized religion, thank you. You've made him nearly painfully relatable in his desperation to be absolved and conflicting refusal to submit himself under another in order to be forgiven. Aauuughhhhhhh
Thank you! :D
Hahah I wish I had more room to tag “Grace’s oral fixation” lol (I hit the 75 tags limit) for the pen nibbling
If they’re not trauma bonded what’s the point???
I honestly think Simon will never truly get used to it! My great grandma lived through the depression and she really hammered in the ‘you cannot waste food’ survival trait into my family that is still present years after she was gone. So I imagine it will continually shock Simon that he has access to so many resources and his behavior will likely still reflect that even after he accepts that he is safe.
I’m so glad you found him relatable. I’m always worried I’m projecting too hard and not accurately reflecting his character so I’m glad to hear it resonated.
Him wanting to be “absolved but refusing to submit himself to be forgiven” is a PERFECT description of Simon ahhhh yes you get it.
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I have actual brain worms and I love the bloodymary reverse au's where Grace loses a leg instead becuase his fear response is FLEE and now he just cannot run //
It's such a perfect switch because most people interpret Simon with a missing arm and his fear response is, can you guess it?? FIGHT. His dominant hand is gone he can't fight-
Like good LORD that is devastating and I'm staring directly at the thematic possibilities
I'm going to figure out the part 1 thingys where people can click through! But here we go.. my bloodymary au of sorts of the fic I am writing. Just the entrance of our one and only SIMON!
First part / Next (not yet)
I tried to make his fins vaguely hand like..
I love horror so much so I will be trying to include many themes of that, and in part two, you guys will learn more on how I am connecting the two. And once I finish chapter one of my FIC I'll link it, as it will have a lot more details and hopefully answer more details. But feel free to question!!! I love answering questions to help figure out my universe more. But yes yes! Anyways enjoy.
I wonder sometimes what kind of person Simon would have been without the Quiet Rapture. He’d probably have moved back to Mars from Eden when he was a teen, or an adult, because he’s got more opportunities there. I don’t know if deep space would have particularly appealed to him, but who knows! Maybe he would have liked to be a navigator because he’s got such a knack for it, and have interned on some deep space trips before returning to Mars in his early 30s.
he’s really smart, and good at picking things up. He’s got a good head on him. He could have done anything he set his mind to, really. And he’s got a hell of a will, so I think if he found something he liked he’d have pursued the hell out of it
he could have been a pilot, and engineer, a doctor if he wanted, a botanist or a librarian, an architect or a cartographer, a scientist in any field he wanted, or just… anything. He’d have made a good activist. He could have been anything he wanted. He would have had a million hobbies, and he’d probably have a knack for embroidery. He might have written a book! He’d be good at that. He’d probably be in a book club for a bit, just for the hell of it. Maybe he’d like racing, or pick up some sports. I don’t know what opportunities he’d have on Mars 300 years from now, but they were probably endless.
one thing he’d never be is a soldier, though. He was never built for it. He’s too headstrong, and questions things too much
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your leftover light fic is genuinely so good I'm so obsessed. I read all of it in one night. I'm at a loss of words I'm trying so hard to compliment you but I'm fumbling so badly
LL is the BEST bloodymary fic I've EVER read. The characterizations are literally perfect. The romance isn't the center. The research is insane. The two characters have so much chemistry yet are too traumatized/busy to acknowledge it. I'm in love with the way you write Simon. I love the whole "what mind games is this blond bitch playing" he's got looping in his head + Grace just being genuinely confused as to why this guy won't accept his help normally.
Thank you for making Simon a tree mutant and not fish. Accurate! Rocky is also sufficiently sarcastic, I love it. I adore Simon being all traumatized yet still high functioning and on high alert. I think you strike the perfect balance between completely losing his shit and being too busy analyzing everything to properly lose his shit. He's a ticking time bomb and I think you've written it perfectly. I thoroughly enjoy reading Simon's perspective.
I adore your fic. I'll come back and compliment you more once my thoughts become more cohesive. Please never stop updating I am obsessed.
(i'm so braindead I sent this to the wrong person so take that as you will)
Sorry this took me so long to respond to! I’m so happy you’ve enjoyed it so far! Hopefully I’ll live up to expectations.
There shockingly little of plant Simon! I love a big ol fish plant human mess mutation for him. I can’t wait until we get further and I can share more thoughts about the plant mutations.
It’s funny bc every time I write them doing something maybe romantic I think “am I going to fast???” But then I just realized it’s been 115k words and they aren’t even friends yet ahaha. So hopefully you continue to like the slow burn because it is definitely slow!
“What mind game is this blond bitch playing” literally made me laugh out loud. That’s exactly it lmaooo. Simon’s trust issues are my fav thing to write. He’s doing emotional calculus while Grace is struggling not to be on the brink of tears at all times.
Thank you for your asks! Gave me the motivation to stop procrastinating and get to work on the next chapter haha
behind every anxious middle school teacher is a more nervous and much more dangerous assassin... or something like that
not me trying not to add yet ANOTHER BloodyMary AU fic to my wip pile.
me: well, I'll just draw it!!! that will get it out of my system surely!
Me: ........... shit
this is an OLD au of mine but it's perfect for them honestly. it was an original story featuring a cyborg assassin being found in a dumpster by Some Dude. Yeah. Might be in love with Grace taking home the stray man he found in the Fucking Trash Can ;3;
A middle school teacher, two rocks and a convict against The Red Eye God, who will win??
My tenth chapter of Leftover Light is out!
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Snippet of Grace blaspheming God below:
“You think you can stop it? You. Against that.” Simon gave Ryland a once-over in his red shirt and orange jumpsuit tied around his waist. Messy blonde hair, eyes creased with smile lines, and fidgeting hands.
“Well, it’s alive, isn’t it?” Ryland said, defensively, crossing his arms with Simon’s gaze on him. “Anything alive can be killed.”
Simon stared at Ryland. Naive, too-good-for-his-own-good Ryland, who just casually admitted he wanted to kill God. The words sounded wrong leaving his mouth, paired with his nonchalant expression. Was this why the Father feared scientists so much? Loathed them? Often, the Father raved against science being the antithesis to God and faith. Science only sowed the seeds of doubt, spreading poisonous vines that suffocated the light and truth of the tree. Was it because he knew that science would try to find a way to kill it?
“You… can’t kill God,” Simon managed.
"Pshh, it’s not god,” Ryland scoffed.
Simon stared at him.
Even the COI researcher had known it was God. Because a god makes sense of what it sees despite what it should be, the researchers' reverent voice had whispered.
“More like the devil. I mean, it was terrifying either way.” Ryland huffed, but Simon's mind was reeling. What did that have to do with anything? God was terrifying. Always had been. “If I believed in that sort of thing. Which I don’t. But hey, whatever floats your boat.”
Ryland gestured to him amicably.
“You don’t think it's a god,” Simon said slowly. “It… spoke to us.”
“Yeah,” Ryland puffed out his cheeks. “Nothing makes sense, but that’s because we haven’t discovered anything about it yet. Just because we don’t understand something doesn’t mean it’s god.”
He said it so simply. Suddenly Simon didn’t feel so bad about his doubts, about his wayward title he had to prove over and over again that he could discard.
I’m not a wayward, Father. I swear it, I swear, please, please- the blade was cool, but his blood was warm, trickling down his throat into the collar of his hood.
Then prove it, Simon. The leather hilt of the blade rough in the palm of his hand, the grey glint in his eye.
Ryland definitely would have been a wayward if he were on Eden, or, more likely, a COI scientist. At Ryland’s words, Simon still felt that built-in resistance, the Father’s voice ringing in his ears. God is the unknown, my son. All that we cannot and will not understand. You would doubt him, Simon? Trust your mortal judgement over his omnipotence?
The scientist hummed. “It’s most likely a terrifying alien from your universe. I’d rather deal with a terrifying alien than a terrifying, unkillable god, right?”
“I’d rather do neither,” Simon said dryly, breath shaking out of him at his blasphemous thoughts.
He gave a bitter chuckle. “Yeah, seriously. But, uh, it’s what we’ve got. I know you’d rather not deal with it. I don’t blame you, which is why we offered an alternative. I can’t…”
Ryland looked down and shuffled his white shoes. “I can’t guarantee you’re going to like what we’re doing if you stay.”
“You saw what it did to us. You can’t even get close without it punting us across the universe. How the hell are you expecting to kill it?” Simon asked incredulously.
“We’re still working on that." Ryland ran his hand through his hair, making it even messier. “But that's the thing, Simon. I have to be able to work on it. I have to try.”
“Why? Wouldn’t the smartest thing to do be preparing for the end? At least prepare supplies for moving as many people as you can to space before the Rapture,” Simon said.
“We’ve talked to the Eridians about it, and they’re holding a thrum. It's like a big meeting sorta…” Ryland's eyes took a watery sheen. “But that’s- that’s a good backup plan. If we fail.”
“You’re going to fail,” Simon said, and Ryland flinched.
“Mean, rude human!” Rocky angrily announced, but Simon wasn’t trying to be mean.
Simon pressed, “Anyone who's tried to find answers about the Light dies! There are whole audio logs, photographs from the SM-8 about it. The researchers. They all died because they were drawn to it. To understanding it. They thought it would save us. Instead-”
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I see so much of Simon being the vaguely unsettling one in the relationship and I love it and I support it but may I raise you; Grace is NOT normal about Simon in the SLIGHTEST.
Whenever he thinks Simon isn't watching, Grace is there.
Doing some gardening? Grace is watching. Learning how to mend clothes creatively? Watching. Learning how to fix little things around the Hail Mary? Watching. Sleeping? WATCHING. Always while half working on his own stuff of course, he has things to do and he also needs a reasonable excuse for 'nono I'm busy here I don't know what you're talking about'.
Documenting his eating habits and his mutations and his injuries healing and at first it's just a good thing to keep track of but it eventually becomes a source of comfort to review all the pages and remember that Simon is HERE despite EVERYTHING.
And Grace KNOWS that this is kind of creepy he just can't really bring himself to CARE anymore. A solid 75% of his social rules have been broken apart by hanging out with an alien rock spider for 4 years he's not above a little indulgence in the presence of another human. And it's not like Rocky knows this isn't normal. Honestly Rocky is just happy to see his favorite human interacting with another human.
This is the first and ONLY human he has had contact with in YEARS. He is just a little obsessed. And it's just a little concerning. He gets better about it after they're on Erid (Simon's not leaving a planet. No way would he ever. Simon's staying. Statement.)
Just. Grace being as afraid of Simon disappearing as Simon is afraid of Grace disappearing. They cling to each other like feral animals.
