athirah halim

All this time, i am blessed by doing the job that i love, by having the working environment that anyone would wish for, and the bosses that is so kind that no one ever imagine that boss can be that good.

But, what I don't realize is, this is actually a TEST for me.

My future husband asked me one day. He asked, 'What if we have kids one day. Will you still working?'.

Deep inside, i know and understand his concern. There are too many cases about the nanny, maid and the child-care place that abused the kids.

I have that kind of worry and phobia too. But me being me, it is not an easy decision to do. Leaving my dream job, and staying at home which seriously not defining who I am, it is seriously hard even to imagine it.

However most of the time, the soft side of me always think and find ways how can i take care of my future baby with my own hand and growing up in front of my eyes.

I realised..

I never be a good daughter to my parents

I never be a nice sister to my sibs

I never be a great friend to my friends.

I never be a pleasant partner to my lover

And yet, God still bless me with all these love. Despite all the bad things i did, these people still love me unconditionally.