Hpv +

Im done being a woman. 😭😭😭😭😭💔

2,1,2020

Please let there be no std's present /: std's scare me so much lol but at least some are curable. The one im most terrified of is HIV ! i would not be able to take a diagosis of such kind. Im never gaving sex again unless its with a faithful bf because i can't take the thought of std's. my anxiety is terrible so it makes things 100x worst.

So i just came back from the clinic and my pap smear results were good because i had no malignant cells which is amazing. Im so happy. she told me i needed to check in 3 years again. I got an std test too, im waiting for the reaults of that. Im nervous >.< i get them in about a week but i guess if they find something. They will call me . TMI : i got my period too as i was taking the urine test. I hope it doesnt mess with the reaults hmm 🤔im getting some bad cramps right now and it hurts a bit more than normal/: i suspect that i have some cervical scarring from a past std i had last year/: sigh, that worries me , I hope that doesnt interfere with my pergnancies in the future . I had to miss class today cause of the appointment but i guess im gonna have to miss tomorrow again since i have yet ANOTHER test result for general health. Maybe i should re-schedule it hmmm (i don't want to miss more school)

Well, im at the clinic waiting for my second pap smear results. I hope the cells stayed the same like last time. Im positive they will since i have been trying to stay healthy. i am still nervous about the results and im also gonna have to ask for another std test because i had an accident last friday with this guy -.- i hope i don’t come up with anything. I thought i was being safe this time but the freaking condom ripped! Fml . Not having sex again unless its with a bf -.-

I had my pap smear done. Now I hope that I did not develop any abnormal cells

its scary because i will have a tube down my throat >.< 

So, i thought i was done with the whole having nausea thing but it started acting up since last week and its worst since the morning. I missed my stomach ultrasound so im gonna have to make a new one. im not sure exactly is causeing it. I was checking my hpv diagnosis today and i carry a high cancerous strain but my last test was negative for abhnormal cells. My throat still gets messed up once in a while so i am scared of throat cancer relates hpv/: im gonna have to ask my doctor about that. I hope its just regular sore throats. ugh, i am back to being worried about this till i get checked out from throat hpv and cancer -.- but im gonna try to keep positive .