the aster symbiont

i love that my birthday is so close to new year, it feels like a complete turning of the page.

i took the night off work last night so i wouldn't have to sleep away my birthday, and really didn't expect much to happen. my colleagues sent me off yesterday morning with a card with money in it, cake, and a dragon hot water bottle. i am very lucky.

since i was a small child, i always thought i would live to 32. no actual medical reason to think this, i just always knew that's the age my mum made it to, and being a child (with some trauma) you don't look at it logically... 32 just became the age. so i am taking nothing for granted and still happy to be here. physically healthy and still learning so much about who i am and what's good for me.

i'm finishing 2024 watching season 8 of desperate housewives, celebrating after mentally fighting through whatever was stopping me booking my flight to serbia in march. finally done.