Aster(evan rosier)

Hiii everyone! I'm Aster<3

MINOR

INFJ-T

Writer/songwriter

Art<3

Guitar🎸

In love with pinterest, spotify, tumblr and ao3 I love Queen, the Marauders, Conan Gray. Heartstopper, Hamilton, Epic The Musical, The Umbrella Academy, MICO, The Case Study of Vanitas, Fanfiction, Cigarettes After Sex, 91 Days, Overgeared, TADC, VAT7K, Heathers, Dead Poets Society and 🍫chocolate🍫

I yap a lot lol

Pinterest: @asterisinsane

No, Neil freaking Perry was in my dream last night. I could rather go for a good cry right about now.

“What will your verse be?” 

WARNING: SPOILERS(dont say i didnt warn you)

This is kind of a longer one than usual, but I just need to talk about it.

Dead Poets Society is actually so beautiful. In every aspect. Todd’s relationship with his brother, Neil’s relationship with his dad, Keating’s relationship with his past self and his desire to help the students figure out who they want to be. The boys growing a bond with him, caring about each other like family, learning to appreciate the little things in life. How each of the Dead Poets, despite walking into it all as something of a joke, slowly develop and understanding of why these things are important. The way Mr Keating helps Neil to chase his dreams and pursue acting, the way he helps Todd overcome his anxiety little by little. He inspires each and every boy in the class in different ways, and learns just as much from them as they do from him. Neil, Todd, Charlie, Knox, Meeks, Pitts, and even Cameron all inspire each other in ways they never knew they could.

I relate so much to many of the characters, and whenever I read or watch Dead Poets Society I feel a deep connection to them in both their joy and their pain. I can never hear carpe diem, 598, Walt Whitman, desk set, madman, A Midsummer Night’s Dream, or “yawp” again without getting emotional. I know I have a habit of getting attached to fictional characters very quickly, but this is probably the easiest it’s ever been for me to find comfort in guys who don’t exist. The whole story captures both the light and the dark in such beautiful ways. The way Neil keeps his crown on when he shoots himself is such amazing author’s craft. To me, it represents him being himself, being defiant—knowing that if he’s going out, he’s going out as the Neil Perry HE wants to be, not his father. Todd’s father referring to him as 598 is so awful, but it’s special to me because it shows how sometimes you feel like you’ll never be enough, no matter how hard you try. I started crying pretty much on the spot when I read the words, “You know what Dad called me when I was growing up? ‘Five ninety-eight.’ That’s what all the chemicals in the human body would be worth if you bottled them raw and sold them. He told me that was all I’d ever be worth unless I worked every day to improve myself. Five ninety-eight”.

My poor baby Todd…out of all the characters, I think I relate to him the most, and when I read this(the 598 thing), I saw it as a manifestation my—or OUR—feelings of inadequacy. All our anxieties of not being good enough compacted into 3 little digits.

When I look at Pittsie, I see a boy with so much to say but so little chance to say it. He seems so quiet on the outside, but there’s so much about him he’d love you to know about. That’s where Meeks comes in.

He’s like that one friend you’re so grateful for because you feel like he’s the one guy who can truly understand you as a person. The whole you. We don’t get to see to much of their friendship, but I love it so, so much.

Another character; Knox, always trying to prove to Chris—to everyone, to himself—that he’s good enough for her. That he’s good enough for SOMEONE. And even though he does make mistakes, like kissing her while she was asleep at that party, he still does try, still loves her deeply and just wants her to know it. Even if he isn’t always the best at showing it right.

Charlie, always loud and boisterous. He just wants people to like him, to think he’s funny. He does seem kind of annoying, but many people use this type of personality to cope; if they’re loud and fun on the outside, maybe they will be on the inside too. That probably sounds so corny but I don’t really care he’s my baby.

Cameron. He’s so hated on by the fandom for being “disloyal” to Mr Keating, but I will always defend him. Think about it: Mr Keating is about to get fired for something that Cameron can’t technically control, and you expect him to put his spot at Welton in jeopardy because of it? While it would have been nice if he stood up for Mr Keating, it’s not his responsibility. Sometimes, you feel like you need to do the SMART thing, not the “right” thing. I relate to him because I also constantly do things I’m not proud of in order to keep myself afloat. It wasn’t his fault that Mr Keating got fired and he shouldn’t be blamed when he couldn’t stop it from happening anyways.

This brings me to the conclusion. The whole message of the story is beautiful(i’ve lost count of how many times i said beautiful lol), it teaches you to do what your heart desires, to chase after your dreams, to live like there’s no tomorrow. Because as the Dead Poets have shown us, there’s a chance there won’t be. 

Evan: Hey can I get one of those sparkly fruity cocktails

Barty: And can I have a beer

Bartender: Coming right up

*after they get their drinks*

Idea for a vat7k episode: 

So the gang pulls up to this kingdom for one of the trials, and it’s extremely fancy and luxurious. Hugo starts getting tempted to revert back to his old ways and steal things, Yong wants to touch and play with every object he sees, and Varian starts running scientific tests on all the fancy crystals he’s never seen before. This leads Nuru to have to be the absolute mother she is and keep the team on track. Eventually they find the next totem, but it’s under heavy lock and key in a very important building. Of course, they send Hugo in to work his magic, but he is caught by the guards, who begin to chase him. Since Hugo is extremely wanted in this kingdom and is SUPPOSED to be a master thief, the rest of the gang questions why he didn’t decide to wear a disguise, but they help him evade the guards. Eventually, they escape, but without the totem. The next day, nuru makes everyone a disguise so they can get into the building, and they successfully retrieve the totem. But Yong, being the lil baby he is, starts using it to play catch with Ruddiger, who doesn’t catch it and it ends up in a stream. Varian, determined to get the totem back, gets on the back of Prometheus (who is surprisingly fast for a donkey) and follows it down the stream. Finally, he gets it and the gang gets on the rode to the next kingdom.

CAN SOMEONE PLS ANIMATE THIS I WLD GENUINELY BE SO HAPPY

Edit: wait i can lowk just make this a fic

Our comfort movies aren't just movies. Our comfort characters aren't just fictional characters.

They make us feel cozy and safe, more so than the real world.

Don't be ashamed to click the power button on that remote, girl.(edit: ts is the corniest shit i ever wrote but its still true😭)

Go ahead and open Netflix again if you need to.

-He would listen to radiohead and boygenius

-He wears the same pair of beat up adidas and refuses to buy new ones

-He and Pandora would actually have the best sibling relationship. Like they would be best friends

-I used to headcanon him as bi but now i think he’s gay

-Addicted to energy drinks

-Plays drums (oddly specific but i mean)

-Kinda unpopular: doesn’t drink(much)

-Is a really good artist but people don’t really know until they see for themself. He is extremely modest about it

-This one is just funny to me but he has blue eyes and wears green contacts. Yes i did say it

-And lastly (pretty popular): this mf skateboards

Like all three are so peak

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