Aspen's blog

I know that when it comes to nonhumans a lot of critters talk about shifts and the types of shifts and how they affect them, but there is something that I feel is more accurate to me than shifts that I havent seen talked about as much, and that is that I dont get shifts, I am always a dog/void the amount of each fluctuates over time and there can be times where the intestity of one is stronger for a while but there is no pinpoint shift, its just slow fluctuations because for me I am always my identies and thus my body is always a dog and the void is always just trapped in this fleshbag.

One thing that gives me general euphoria is making people question their sanity on what I am, it’s so fun watching them try to work out what’s going on and them just being confused as, like they look at em and the first thought should be what is this thing and what is it doing, it has gotten to the point where my friends just won’t bat an eyelid and are just ohh that’s aspen don’t mind it if you know what’s going on let us know, anyway it’s just so fun to do random things I can’t be bothered giving full examples as we would be here writing this till tomorrow (only 20 minutes) and we need sleep.

Hey just a quick blog information post for moots / followers I have just slightly changed my urls from aspen-the-dog to aspen-barks, I just slightly prefer a little bit of a shorter tag so yeah apart from that not much else has changed ( especially the abysmal post sechdule, I only really see the point in posting when I have something to say and most of the time my mind is busy or I can’t word the things properly so I just don’t post :3)

To who ever gave me my social skills, fuck you. I cant communicate well in any way par basic small talk and when I want to talk to someone who actually looks cool, it takes me ages to gain the confidence to do it, I cant really make friends, all my current ones started talking to me before I talked to them. I need the book for Human interactions as my current one is only just working with this wrong hardware

I should buy a chew toy, my mouth keeps telling me that I need it

Welp, I fed up with this world, where’s the exit door to get back home and out of this suit that is getting tighter every day.

Rain is incredible, just how it feels cleaning everything of human pollutants resetting everything and letting there be time to breathe, I just really like it as it is a reminder to stop and clean the mental pollutants that can’t have anything done about them at the moment and just to embrace the moment, its reminder is what makes me feel the most connected to my animal kins, the only downside is that the clouds cover the sky and it’s beauty and the voids between. Anyway I am just sat in a window with the rain and wanted to say this so it’s probably really badly written not that it really concerns me as this blog probably doesn’t really make sense anyway with no posts for weeks and no warnings between pivots in post types, I don’t know why you lot still follow.

I keep getting the urge to just bark, for no reason apart from to confuse people anyway I keep deciding not to after a few minutes.

This body is all wrong, front legs and hind legs aren’t the same, neck can’t bend right, ribs to short and jaw to small I need to find a new one

Fuck dysphoria

I’m like 99% sure that I’m just trapped behind this skin, I am thinking I should fuck it and just cut it open and be free for once

Hey so I need some advice/ sort of experience from the physical/biological otherkins etc just like what made you come to the conclusion of this because I have been thinking and am unsure if I am or are not, because fir me it feels like there’s a skin that if cut into underneath is a vaguely dog shaped void thing that is just sort of trapped, and I know that labels aren’t the be all and end all but I kinda want some advice before coming to a conclusion rather then getting something wrong because *anxiety* anyway any help is appreciated, thanks