Ask a Transgender Guy

hello!! so i’m struggling with my gender identity and i need some guidance. basically i was assigned female at birth but i know that doesn’t feel right. i’ve been using they/them pronouns for a bit but it still feels off. but the thing is i’m feminine? i like doing my makeup and painting my nails. idk if i can be trans and enjoy those things. i wish i was born a boy so i could be like james charles and not have to worry about this but i’m just so confused.

What is daily life like after finally having finally transitioned? Does dysphoria sort of fade to the background? And will mental health improve drastically, especially if before transition, daily dysphoria was a main contributor to bad mental health? I guess what I am asking is, what are the thoughts and emotions you have when you wake up in the morning knowing your finally in the right body?

I don't understand the concept of being transgender. I understand the term 'gender' is used to describe a mindset, but can't a person be a man or a woman with an androgynous mindset? Why is there a need to change the body and have different pronouns?

(Sorry for being anonymous, I don't have an account). I'm cis and I have been trying to understand transgender, but I always get confused when I hear or read stuff about how gender is made up and doesn't really exist. That always sounded transphobic to me. Am I wrong? I mean, I'm a girl, but if a spent my life being told I was a boy, being "dressed like a boy", only playing with "boy toys", I wouldn't be trans because my body still matches my mind, right? Isn't that what gender is?

I'm sorry but I'm just upset and confused and idk how to feel about this. For like 3 years now I've had some time periods, not very many, maybe like once or twice a year for a couple months where I just feel awful and uncomfortable in my skin, and I want to bind my chest and appear more masculine, but I don't feel like a guy or a girl either. And even if I'm not feeling this way I always feel like I'm dragging myself through the day and its hard. Could this be dysphoria??