It's making me sick

7) The Trapper And The Furrier

In the cool winter air, I missed her all night

Into my dreams I wait for her to waltz, a stunning sight

But she is my wildest dream

Oh, she is my wildest dream

All I do is sleep; sunshine or moonbeams

I've forgotten your eye shape, the sound of your voice

I've forgotten your eye shape, the sound of your voice

It wasn't an option, it wasn't my choice

These days I feel cold inside and out

These days I feel cold inside and out

6) The Light

5) Black And White

4) Small Bill$

3) Grand Hotel

2) Older And Taller

1) Bleeding Heart

if once I half died

then why not make it twice?

If once the knife went through to the other side, the heart was split,

why not one in the head as well?

it's because- they want me to feel the pain

to rationalize, to beg, to sob on the floor and get

dirt in my hair

I watch them, across the table

it's thanksgiving, they eat until full and laugh like

                                                              cardboard

nibbling I wait for it not hurt anymore

I have been since I was five

                          with muddy socks and toy horses-