barely breathing

And when she’s old enough to understand, she’ll understand. It’s his own fault.

I can’t stop being so fucking sad all the time.

She’s going to ask one day where her father is and I have to tell her that. 

H-How do I tell my daughter this when she’s older?

I’m sorry. You know you can call me if you need anything, right?

I miss him sometimes. That’s all.

Is it cool if I bring Tori?

I don’t mind. It’s probably still cleaner than my room.     How’ve you been, love?

Really, really shitty.

V-Victoria? {Baylor nodded} Yeah it’s fine, Ashley. 

It’s just T-Tori. I don’t really call her Victoria anymore.

Hey Ash, not it’s okay. You just scared me. 

I didn’t mean to scare you. I was in a rush. I forgot Tori’s bottle.

Need help? You look a bit tired. How old is your child?

She’s four months old.

I was just starting to clean up once I found Tori’s jumper.

Can we please spend the night eating?

That does not sound gross. That sounds like my kind of Friday night.

What the actual fuck- Why are you in here?

I must’ve gotten the hotel rooms mixed up. I walked into the wrong one.

Sometimes I really regret my mum waking me up and dragging me to my x factor audition, and then there’s days like this in unbelievable places and then I start to realize that I owe her the world.

It’s kind of strange when you thing about things that way. Mothers do whatever they think would make us happy. It seems like she did her job.