i’d love to be an independent bitch but the fact of the matter is i miss my girlfriend terribly :(

it’s amazing how i got so much of my anxiety under control but in such a terrifically maladaptive way

if you avoid and avoid and avoid and avoid avoid avoid avoid avoid avoid avoid avoid avoid avoid avoid avoid avoid avoid avoid, you can become a shell/husk ! why ever do something… it can always wait for tomorrow. eventually, your self can be tomorrow, too. whatever this is, now - i guess you wanted it to be nothing, right?

really touched that when my sister came to tour apartments with me, she said “we’d have to do a deep clean of some of them” just volunteering herself to come clean my space very sweet of her :’)

going to have to radically change my diet due to stomach Issues and can’t wear any of my pants without them ruining my day… i want to stop online window shopping but i really do want to be able to wear stuff that’s not sweatpants without getting a tummy ache. :( and I don’t wanna buy all new pants in like two sizes up so they fall off my body so they don’t hurt me

having a career where i get paid well and feel confident and competent. want it so bad…