This is it. I have no idea what it's going to be like out there.
N-not that I'm scared or anything. It's exciting, really. Anything could happen.
This is all a very dramatic way of me saying, hi everyone! Everest here (but also, not?), and also, this is my goodbye to you all and this blog. Thank you for everything, and we will hopefully see you in the future <3
...Though, if you *do* want to hear more of why and stuff, it will be under the cut. Fair warning: it's long and also extremely dramatic
It's been seven months since my collective's syscovery and maybe two months since I, the person writing this message, a chaotic Tumblr gremlin who would randomly start the dumbest jokes for no reason and the resident skeptunist enjoyer, stopped feeling like "Everest Gale". What a strange thing to realize, right? To suddenly not relate to the identity that you have so carefully curated and that you have been cherishing so deeply for months and months. But on the other, it makes sense, doesn't it? It's an identity that belonged to someone *we* collectively thought of as "me". Of course as more and more of my headmates have begun to establish themselves as their own people, the less and less sense "Everest Gale" made for *me*.
I was in denial for a while. The exact reasons as to why are a little too personal to be shared publicly, but long story short, it was a combination of some insecurities, some struggles and doubt, and some people - or rather, a certain person - exacerbating my feelings that I *had to* cling to this identity of "Everest Gale", to do otherwise would be to betray people. And yet, all I've been doing this whole time was betraying *myself*.
I'm sure you all have noticed how little this blog has been getting used since our syscovery. And part of the issue was personal issues stacking on top of each other, sure, but another part of it was that it felt *awkward* to do that. The more time went on, the more it felt like a "performance", a show that I wanted to put on, rather than something that came directly from my heart like it had happened in the past. And in hindsight, it makes sense. This is *my* blog, so our headmates felt awkward using it, and yet now it also belongs to someone I no longer am. It feels weird to use when there is this image people have of who "Everest Gale" is, it feels weird to use when everything feels out of place, and it feels weird to use when *I am* not "Everest Gale" anymore. And so, as much as it kind of sucks for me to say, I think I have to let this blog go, along with everything "Everest Gale" related. And this is my goodbye.
...It's very bittersweet for me. I am parting ways with something that once meant so much to me. And in a way, it still does mean so much to me. "Everest Gale" made a lot of mistakes, some of which still haunt me to this day, and yet I can't help but be grateful for the version of us that got us where we are today. "Everest Gale" is how I forced myself to "put myself out there". "Everest Gale" is how I was able to find my joy, my voice and even reach people, when I had so much doubt, in a very confusing time of our life. And "Everest Gale" is how I found some of my closest, dearest friends, the support group that has helped us get through some very rough patches of our life, and who we could support back, the very people who are our foundation for us to finally be able to stand up tall and *breathe*.
Also nothing is getting deleted, for the record. And in fact, I will probably still use this account "for now" to lurk on my friends' blogs from time to time, but there will not be any new posts or reblogs here. It's just going to be an archive, a memoir of someone we used to be not too long ago.
And? What happens next? Who knows, really. Perhaps, when we are ready to make art and post on social media again, we will return to Tumblr and even StP Tumblr, just with a new blog and a new name. Perhaps, we will find a new fandom for us to bunker in and make stuff for. Perhaps, we will finally try making our own original stuff. I don't know, none of us do! Just like the Slay the Princess quote I pulled to start this post with, I'm excited to see where life takes us. Where we might go, what might we find, who might we meet, and what we might make, now that we are no longer shackling ourselves to an identity that doesn’t make sense anymore, now that we know we are *we* and can say so with pride.
Perhaps when that time comes, I will make one more post here, letting people know that we have a new blog. Or maybe we won't, and we will just let people discover ourselves naturally. I can't make any promises right now. "We will see" is the only real answer I have here.
But in any case, thanks for sticking around everyone! Perhaps we will see you all again in the future. But for now, take care everyone, and hope you have a wonderful time <3
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OMG HII!! Augh he looks SO GOOD IN YOUR STYLE. His feathers have so much movement, and the thinness in the lines for his head feather gives it such a soft texture! Might I also say that the sharpness of weight you added to the lines gives the art so much presence! I'm promptly adding this to my new folder for the art y'all have been giving me!!
The expression here is so beautiful!! Thank you!!! But my god have you improved so much. I remeber your first few animations for the tourney. It's clear that you've been growing much more comfortable with animation and designs that are so different from yours. Thank you so much for all of your hard work!
Well... Better late than never, right @voice-of-the-sexyman ?
So many designs... It took a long time to make... But it was worth it.
I'm going to add a flashing light warning + (pink) blood just in case (don't worry, there aren't any flashing lights—I just couldn't find any better effects... And the blood, it's not really blood—it's just a special effect, too :/)
We have made it once more to the semi-finals, do remember to vote !!
Brokens of @pzysm, @cracked-frog, @pixiefeatherkw3, @bed-buge
I decided to have a bit more fun this time around, Kinstugi already has glowing elements so why not let the others have fun?
They're kind of glow-in-the-dark so remember to have your Broken's bask in the light of her radiance every once and a while !!
I think you guys can charge these Broken's up before being sold right @voice-of-the-sexyman - um. Is everything okay up there...?
Okay, time for some closeups
You know these guys, I know these guys, no intros needed but I need you all to level with me...WHY IS EVERYONE MOOT
IT'S A WIN LOSE NO MATTER WHICH PAIR WINS SAVE MEEEEE
coUGh
Anyways want some dumb sketches
Oh hey is that @artibirdi's Sacrifice? Yeah uh, this was drafted when their polls were debatable close enough where it couldddd be tilted in either direction. So congrats ig kekek
I wonder who we'll see again.... till then everyone :]
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I did some drawings of the voices of mine I don't draw super often
Yesterday I had redrawn my instinct hunted design and went down a spiral of drawing more of the alternate and some what-if designs (that are under the cut)
(WARNING: GORE AND BODY HORROR UNDER THE CUT)
First, some alternative designs
Voice of the Flinching/Cheated
HEA length (for reference, Smitten is 6'0ft. Because that's the height that's often used as a basis for attractive heights)
Secondly, what-if designs (here's where the gore/body horror is)
A potential Hero design. An end-game design where Hero loses most of their bird like features to become closer to that of a proper knight in shining armor. His wings are traded for a long flowing cape, his false face traded for a proper helmet, and his hip wings are traded for plating. -Basically he trades his wings to protect those of whom he loves
A rugged Oppy design. Taken from the degradation of Hunted's self in instinct. At first I wanted to do a warped mask representing the two-facedness of him, but I decided against it for a design that sticks closer to oppy normally. Because nothing is more effective than simply cracking a trickster's mask. I shifted his posture and ruffled his feathers to emphasize his wildness. As most Oppy designs are quite pristine to contrast Witch's wildness, I simply broke his mask to make some similarities more apparent.
Finally, a paranoid design. I broke him down to his "heart lungs liver nerves" and removed his head because when a person goes mad, they are often said to have "lost their head." The purpose of this design? Idk. I was just having fun
"First off, let's just take a deep breath. Breathe in...and out...
AND SAY CONGRATULATIONS TO THE FINALE OF VOICE OF THE SEXY BROKEN!! FOR NOT ONLY THE SPECTACLE OF THE TIE, BUT FOR THE WONDERFUL SPORTSMANSHIP DISPLAYED FROM START TO FINISH!
👏 👏 👏 👏 👏 👏 👏
Now, you are probably expecting an award ceremony, right about now.
"But Mai, you didn't make anything!" You probably asked.
But not to worry! I DID make something! It just couldn't be done until the Finale!
From the lovely and free labors of @coldranger , I present to you the Trophies for our beloved birds! Symbolizing the shared victory of @cracked-frog and @bed-buge in our Finale!!
Of course, we can't forget our second and third place winners!! @pzysm and @pixiefeatherkw3 , you battled well and your effort was recognized!
We thank the lovely Apotheosis for handing out the rewards!
Cheers for our winners of Voice of the Sexy broken!!
👏 👏 👏 👏
Now...as for who is next...we will need to wait a bit longer~
Few days ago I thought I'd redraw the "What if their fake faces were removable" drawing. Paranoid has been unfortunately kicked out of the club since they were redesigned. So now it's a duo.
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"Welcome Slayers, Narrators and Princesses, to the Finale of--"
🏆 VOICE OF THE SEXYMAN CHAMPIONSHIP - Broken Edition 🏆
FINAL ROUND PART I
@cracked-frog VS @bed-buge
The Doll
The Kinstugi
Voting ended onJun 1
[Propaganda under the cut]
"Guess what?! Apotheosis let me co-host with her!"
"SPEAK TO ME WITH RESPECT, CHILD!"
"I'm atheist, so no. And let's not get into that! Our main stars have finally arrived in heaven! Or...just the tournament ground again, but that doesn't matter because it's the battle we're all waiting for!"
[Propaganda by @cracked-frog ]
"The Kinstugi! The new face who made his way through!"
[Propaganda by @bed-buge (yes this is on purpose)]
"And the Doll, a successor in the making for the Cold!
Two colored drawings?! Of my ocs?! For me?!?! THANK YOU SO MUCH! TA looks so fluffy here. And omg the lighting is impeccable. The gold rim makes them look so angelic. The wrapping is so shiny. And that's all not to mention the background. Excellent choice of colors the desatured purple blends really well into the blue which blends really well into the greenish-yellow. And the little block to break up the gradient and retain emphasis on the character. GAH BITING- NO, MAULING YOU FOR THIS
hello artibirdi,, may i request a doodle of one of my guys
broken n paranoid respectively! either or :-) thank you
HI HI HIIII. SO SORRY, HERE ARE YOUR CHILDREN. Very happy to see you in my nest, I really like your designs. I could totally see these two actually yapping in the different scenarios in stp. Your designs are some of the ultimate shapes. Thank you for your patience. Bye bye!!
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"Welcome back, Slayers Narrators and Princesses! And we are back on--"
🏆VOICE OF THE SEXYMAN CHAMPIONSHIP - Broken Edition🏆
ROUND IV PART I
@artibirdi VS @cracked-frog
The Sacrifice
The Doll
Voting ended onMay 18
[Propaganda under the cut]
"This round will test our contestants green thumb, or...claw, in some cases...but regardless, I hope you do a good job! It's late as shit so there's no other host but me!
Sorry for having to take you back to the ground, but I assure you, you will be taken care of. All you need to do is help out a little. And we got a big helper in @artibirdi 's Sacrifice!!"
"Keeping on theme with the Sacrifice fighting smol opponents, @cracked-frog 's the Doll got a big task ahead of him. But with the support of his BESTEST "friend" ;), Oppy, I am sure it's fineee~"
