Art by Erri

i found how easy it is to capture my soul in words awing. you’ve written down these words just spawning these phrases from your head like im being haunted. 

are you hearing me? and seeing what im seeing? looking through my eyes and feeling what im feeling?

we’ve taken this lame piece of the world and given it a name. projected onto it so it’s now the same and as close and familiar as the blood in our veins.

i cannot just be until you see:

a word.

and know exactly what I mean.

I could see the story arc behind it. The emotion behind it. The world building behind the single 

word.

I know how many times this word would be repeated.

know how many times the characters have said it.

know how its meaning changes in the story. within the prose.

and thats a 

word.

what about a sentence?

it why its so difficult for me to write because all I know is the one sentence or

word.

and thats all my head will give me today

and i could write it down. that sentence or 

word

and no one else knows what I mean no one else knows the depth behind the letters.

and i wonder why cant you see

See what i see. See the potentional.

there are paragraphs behind it

novels behind it

hidden and stored away.

and you can’t see it.

because all my head will give me is 

out of nothing

small to grand

and just like us

beautiful and elegant

and just like us

they wilt and dull

and just like us

roses turn to dust

and every day you’ll miss

how they stood

Title: Hopeless Romantic

Prompt: The Romantic + Mindless

Title: "...you knew the game and played it"

Prompt: The Magician + Rings

How Long Will I Be Afraid

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This is like... this last good thing I drew before my art skillz completely just... disintegrated :]]]

Dear Best Friend,

I'm sorry for never speaking, for never showing the words on my mind. Sorry for being mute time after time. Sorry we are close and could never be farther apart, for asking about your day, to scared to tell you about mine. Sorry for letting time be the only reason we are closest friends

From, the happiest 3rd grader

Dear Onlookers,

I'm sorry vomiting my pain, my thoughts and days of rain. You're so sweet and I love interacting with you. Stay amazing!

From someone who wonders if we'll ever truly know each other

Dear Framp Squad,

I'm sorry for holding on. Im sorry for letting go. Im sorry for being to scared to talk again. I'm sorry for falling in love and putting up the false illusion that everyone lasts. I'm sorry that I let you see that broken heart and faded smile who used to laugh. I love you guys hope the of your days start and end well.

From The Ruins of Erriville

P.S I still stand in our corner

Dear The Five Greatest People I Might Never Meet,

I'm sorry for everything I do and dont do. I'm sorry for disappearing. I'm sorry I wish it was like it was before. You didn't tell me. No one did. You hurt me and I didnt like you for a while and more. I'm sorry for being angry while not knowing the whole story. I was scared when you came for the first time and I'm sorry for that too. I love you.

From A Candle

Dear Love,

I'm sorry. Im sorry for falling in love with you because it will happen all over again the same way it did last year. I'm sorry you believe you'll stay cause I've learned that lesson already. I'm sorry you never got to meet "Smiley Erri". Sure, I smiled but you never truly saw the girl who never shed tears because nothing ever caused her to. I'm sorry I push you away and endlessly mean. Sorry, I'm not better. You deserve better

From, the Creativity to your Logic

Dear Mom,

I'm sorry. So truly and deeply sorry. For not trying my best and for disappointing. I'm sorry for being locked up in my room. I'm sorry for trying. I'm sorry for not letting you know my gloom. I wish I could talk to you about anything. I'm sorry for thinking I couldn't talk to you. I'm sorry for being scared to. I could never ask for better mother. You deserve a better child.

From "Your Favourite" according to me

and

I'm sorry to myself,

For not believing I could do things. For failing to see how strong I am, and undoing knots. How blessed I am, forgetting God. I'm sorry for feeding myself negative thoughts. I'm sorry for thinking I wanted to end and all the regretful things I've said. I'm sorry for falling into a hole. You need to dig yourself out. You're smart enough to live as an adult. You know it gets better. I'm sorry for thinking I'm broken because someone will love me, all whole. I'm sorry for writing these apology letters.