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You're Gonna Be Like Me (2641 words) by Spacedouterri Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Sanders Sides (Web Series) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Creativity | Roman "Princey" Sanders & Dark Creativity | Remus "The Duke" Sanders Characters: Creativity | Roman "Princey" Sanders, Dark Creativity | Remus "The Duke" Sanders Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Vampire, Character Turned Into Vampire, Kidnapping, Biting, Blood, Violence, Attempted Murder, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Creativity | Roman "Princey" Sanders & Dark Creativity | Remus "The Duke" Sanders Are Twins Series: Part 1 of Bloodied Roses Summary: The night that Roman dies. AKA the worst family reunion ever…

I am acorns after fires

I am cacti with no rain

I am spores after death

I am persistant

I am beautiful

i will take a deep breath

Not in a way that is possessive

Not like a secret

Not mine in that no one else can have you

But you are mine.

.

Mine like experiences and memories are mine

Mine like laughter is mine

Like jokes and stories are mine

Mine like art and poetry is mine

Mine like love is mine

.

You are mine

In that you are meant to be cherished, and adored, and shared by many

You are mine in the way that the world is mine

You are mine like a secret

Looking for someone in a room

Once you start.

And your heart will always skip a beat

When you find them.

The only thing that changes

But the strongest emotion im feeling right now is love

But if i wrote about love

It would be all scared and trying and enduring and hoping

and taking deep breaths

and walking away for a moment

and not understanding what im feeling

and finding reassurance in little moments

And being scared and hoping away

.

And you read these

I love too hard and thats whats wrong with me

Today i believe

I love too hard

And thats something God

You stare ahead and your heart

pounds against your chest.

There is this tingling, crawling,

overbearing sensation of an adventure

yet to come.

Just ahead in front of you.

You feel no excitement,

Not like you dreamed of,

You feel no thrill.

You just feel cold

and small.

Cause the everlands in front of you are very much alive,

and they are very much real,

and this isnt the adventure you dreamed of.

You stare at what awaits you

.

Lesson?

Am i to be telling lessons cause i dont tell lessons

This is purely the inner bits of my mind coming out to the surface

This is my notebook

My secrets whispered in your ears

My night visions and daydreams set to paper

This is my diary

This is my stage

My circus ring

My performance of my downward spiral

This is my cartharsis

This is my heart spilling out

Like it was ripped out of my chest

This is all the words i could think of to describe

what it is to live in my head