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so i have DID, which obviously results in multiple personalities. if one alter shifts is that their own awareness or is it one awareness as we're still one body? i'm curious cause i'm not the only alter in our system who's a shifter and like. if one of us successfully shifts do the rest of us stay here or does our awareness only exist as one so we "all" shift at once?

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Hey so I absolutely love that question! And hopefully I’ll be able to answer it!

Keep in mind, non of what I’m about to say is intending to hurt you or anyone, and im genuinely sorry if I’ll say anything that makes you uncomfortable. My goal is simply to provide an objective answer to your questions based on our current knowledge of this condition.

Also, DID is one of the most misunderstood condition in psychology, and socially (even from some healthcare professionals and from some people who have this condition). Im not saying I know more about your own condition than you do, absolutely not, but that the following is based off scientific and medical evidence and that it may not reflect how social media present this condition.

That being said, I had to make a little bit of research to be able to answer your questions, because I never researched or studied DID specifically, but I found a lot of information that allows me to state the following (no I don’t have any website sources written down particularly, but this is all publicly available and easily accessible information, for anyone interested).

Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) is portrayed in medias as if multiple completely separate people live inside one body, but it’s more nuanced. DID is not a person "having many brains" or many independent consciousnesses. It is a single human being whose normal sense of identity, memory and self became divided as an adaptation to overwhelming trauma during early childhood.

A baby is not born with a fully developed identity. During infancy and childhood, different emotional states exist separately. A young child can feel completely happy one moment and completely terrified the next without integrating those experiences into a stable sense of self.

As the brain matures, these different emotional and behavioral states gradually become connected. Memories become linked together as the emotions become integrated, and the child develops one continuous identity that feels like "me”. (This process is called integration).

For most children, this integration happens naturally because they experience a relatively safe and predictable environments. Stressful events can usually be processed and incorporated into one coherent identity.

But for some children the situation is different. DID is believed to develop almost exclusively in children who experience repeated and severe trauma during the years when identity is still developing.

This trauma often includes chronic physical abuse, sexual abuse, severe neglect, emotional abuse, torture or other overwhelming experiences (especially when the caregiver is also the source of danger).

Because a young child cannot physically escape the trauma, the brain learns to psychologically escape instead. It “dissociate”.

Dissociation is a natural survival mechanism built into the human brain, even that everyone dissociates to some degree. For example, someone driving home may suddenly realize they don't remember the last minutes of the drive, or a person absorbed in a movie may temporarily forget everything around them, etc.

But during overwhelming trauma dissociation becomes much stronger that the child's brain essentially separates awareness from the traumatic experience. (Awareness as in what they are currently aware of). Instead of integrating everything into one continuous identity, different experiences, emotions, memories and coping strategies become compartmentalized.

Rather than one integrated self developing, separate identity states emerge because “integration” was interrupted.

These identity states are commonly called “alters”.

From a scientific perspective alters are not multiple people sharing one body, and they are not multiples personalities either. They are distinct organized patterns of memory, emotion, perception, behavior and self-awareness that developed within one brain (careful, “self-awareness” doesn’t = awareness)

Each alter may specialize in handling particular situations. One may hold traumatic memories while another may function in everyday life, another may protect the individual during perceived danger, another may contain emotions such as fear, anger or sadness that became isolated from daily functioning.

This organization allowed the child to survive experiences that otherwise might have been psychologically unbearable.

Brain imaging studies support the idea that these identity states represent genuinely different patterns of brain functioning rather than “people pretending”. Basically, we know it’s true, and we also know why it is (and no, it’s not many individuals in the same body).

Functional MRI (fMRI), PET scans, EEG recordings and other neuroimaging techniques have found measurable differences between identity states in areas involved in memory, emotion regulation, pain perception, visual processing and self-awareness.

These changes are involuntary and occur automatically when different identity states (alters) are active.

This involve the hippocampus, which helps organize memories into coherent autobiographical experiences. People with DID often show differences in hippocampal volume and functioning, consistent with the effects of chronic childhood trauma.

Another important region is the amygdala, which detects threats and generates fear responses. In DID different identity states may show very different levels of amygdala activation depending on whether they are associated with traumatic memories or everyday functioning.

The prefrontal cortex (responsible for planning, reasoning, impulse control and emotional regulation) may also function differently for identity states. Some alters show stronger executive control while others show greater emotional reactivity.

The brain is not switching between multiple brains. It is switching between different “large-scale neural networks” that have become highly compartmentalized over years of development. Basically, those alters are multiple peaces of one whole person.

Normally, memories become stored within one autobiographical “timeline”. In the brain, memories are stored as networks of connected information rather than recordings. When you think about a memory, your brain is basically reconstructing it based off of it. In DID, certain memories may only be accessible from particular identity states. One alter may remember a traumatic event vividly while another has no awareness that it happened. This is called dissociative amnesia.

The memories are not destroyed or forgotten, they exist within the same brain but are separated by dissociative barriers that reduce communication between different identity states. Basically, it’s still there(you cannot erase or forget a memory), it’s just not consciously accessible right now.

Some individuals experience complete amnesia between alters, while others have partial awareness or shared memories.

Awareness itself is more complicated than simply being "awake” (again, awareness as in being aware doesn’t = awareness as in you).

Many people with DID describe several different patterns of awareness. Sometimes only one alter is aware of what is happening, sometimes another alter is "co-conscious" meaning they observe without controlling the body.

Sometimes one alter can hear another's thoughts or internal conversations. That’s also why you may have seen people on social media’s with DID, who have alters who are “dating”. They can “communicate” from “inside”, but they are actually literally the same person. Basically the are one single person with one awareness, but severe trauma forced their mind to build walls around different memories and traits, making them feel like separate identities. They are basically different peaces of one whole person.

Importantly, all of these experiences occur within one nervous system and one brain.

Is someone with DID one person?

Scientifically, medically, legally and biologically, the answer is yes.

There is one human being;

There is one brain;

One nervous system;

One awareness;

One consciousness;

One subconscious;

One unconscious;

One body;

One genome;

One developmental history;

One continuous life;

Even in therapy, DID is viewed as one person whose sense of self did not integrate.

Does each alter has its own consciousness?

The answer depends on how consciousness is defined. Consciousness generally refers to the capacity for subjective experience (the awareness of thoughts, emotions, perceptions and the environment). The individual as a whole possesses consciousness because the brain as a whole generates conscious experience.

But each alter represents a different organization of that conscious experience.

Rather than several completely independent consciousnesses existing simultaneously, there is one conscious brain whose awareness can become organized into different identity states.

Researchers describe DID as fragmented consciousness rather than multiple consciousnesses.

BUT if we are talking about consciousness as in the level of the mind (just like the subconscious, and like we do when talking about shifting), people with DID only have one shared consciousness.

Regardless of terminology, the current scientific evidence does not support the existence of multiple entirely independent minds within one brain.

What about the subconscious and unconscious mind?

The subconscious refers to information that is not currently in awareness. The unconscious includes mental processes that occur outside awareness. A person with DID still has one overall brain performing these functions (just like consciousness).

The subconscious is not duplicated for every alter, nor is the unconscious.

You can even go to therapy to helps increase communication, cooperation, emotional regulation and memory integration between those alters. Some individuals eventually achieve “full integration” into one unified identity. Which means that basically, they manage to integrate all of those peaces of themselves into one sens of identity (“me”), just like it would have been supposed to happen during their childhood.

Others achieve what clinicians call “functional multiplicity”, where identity states remain distinct but cooperate well enough that the person functions successfully without severe amnesia or distress.

This is not the most important part to answer the question, but it basically shows that it is one person with one brain, one mind, one awareness, one consciousness, one subconscious and one unconscious mind. It is one person.

The scientific understanding of DID continues to evolve but the central point is clear, DID is not the creation of multiple separate people. It is the result of one developing brain using dissociation as a survival strategy in response to severe, repeated childhood trauma. What appears from the outside as multiple identities is (from a medical and neuroscientific perspective) one person's mind expressing highly organized, dissociated self-states within a single conscious brain.

Again, one person, one awareness, one mind.

Now, about shifting.

DID does not fundamentally change the mechanism of shifting. It only influence how awareness is organized before and after the shift.

The key distinction is between the mind as a whole and the current point of conscious awareness (what is being experienced).

Even in DID, there is still one brain, one underlying cognitive system, and one subconscious.

Since shifting operates through awareness rather than through the physical brain, the subconscious and awareness would function as the common foundation that supports every identity state (alters).

It would contain the complete set of information necessary for the shift, regardless of which identity state currently occupies control.

But the conscious mind is different.

The conscious mind (as what you are currently experiencing) can be thought of as a spotlight. The spotlight does not create the stage, it illuminates one portion of it.

In a person without DID, that spotlight remains attached to one integrated sense of self. In DID, the spotlight can move between different identity states, each representing a different organization of perception, memory, emotion, etc.

The "division" in DID is not a division of awareness (as “you”) itself but of where awareness (as in being aware) is currently focused.

The awareness that shifts would simply be whichever point of focus is active at the time.

Basically, of someone with DID shift, it would be like anyone else. A person with DID is one person whose sens of self is divided. But it is still one person. One awareness (as “you”). That one awareness (“you”) is what shifts. (Also, keep in mind that just like anyone else, a person with DID is also constantly shifting. Natural shift are no different than voluntary ones).

The subconscious is also still the one to the entire individual.

Since the subconscious is shared between alters (one subconscious for the individual), the mechanisms responsible for determining your DR and for you to shift (subconscious expectations) dont need to be distinguish between alters. Because all of the alters have the same subconscious.

(They would simply be impacted by the intentions and mental state of the currently active conscious perspective (just like anyone’s subconscious is)).

NOW

If another alter were co-conscious during the shift, the experience would become more complex (not because multiple people are shifting, but because multiple identity states are simultaneously participating in the experience of the same underlying awareness (as “you”).

What shifts is not an alter, but the person's complete awareness.

An alter is not awareness itself, and it dosent have an awareness to itself. An alter is a particular organization of awareness (a specific pattern of memories, emotions, self-perception, habits, executive functioning through which the one person experiences reality, etc).

Awareness is more fundamental than any one identity state. It is not only the capacity to experience, but it is YOU.

The alters describe how that awareness is organized and expressed, not what awareness is.

So regardless of whether one alter or several alters (co-conscious) are consciously present, the awareness and the shift belongs to the entire individual.

The person shifts. Not one part of the person and mot one brain state (alter).

The whole person (the individual who exists through every identity state (you)) undergoes the shift.

This remains true even if the person's experience of themselves differs depending on which alter is fronting.

One way to think about it is that DID changes the perspective from which awareness experiences life, but it does not divide awareness into separate beings.

The conscious, subconscious and unconscious mind belong to the individual as a whole, whether or not they are presently accessible to the alter who is fronting.

BUT

The alter who is aware during the shift may or may not impact the experience. (I cannot give you a definitive answer on that, so you’ll have to shift and let me know, but here are the 2 possibilities).

So how co-consciousness functions in everyday life is that 2 alters (or more) may both remember a conversation because both were consciously aware while it occurred. Another alter who was not co-conscious may later have no recollection of that same conversation.

The event happened to the whole person but the access to the memory differs.

The same could apply to shifting. Suppose the individual shifts while alter A is fronting and alter B is co-conscious.

Both may remember the shifting experience because both participated consciously in the experience.

Alter C (separated by stronger dissociative barriers) may later have no memory of shifting at all. You as a whole and as awareness shifted, and the memories are still there, but it doesn’t mean that every alters will have access to it.

That does not mean alter C failed to shift (because what shift is you (awareness) as a whole). Nor does it mean alter C remained behind (because it is a part of you as a whole).

It simply means that alter C lacks access to the memory of an event that belongs to the individual. If someone with DID attends a birthday party while one alter is fronting, the entire body attends the party, the entire nervous system processes the experience and the entire brain undergoes the event. Yet another alter may later have no conscious memory that the birthday party ever happened. Again, this is clinically understood as dissociative amnesia.

Some alters may share knowledge, some may experience amnesic barriers where one alter cannot access the memories of another alter’s experiences. But this does depends of the person’s condition. Some people experience stronger amnesic barrier between alters and other may not.

By definition, diagnosing DID requires recurrent gaps in memory for everyday events or traumatic past events. If a person had immediate access to all memories across all alters all the time, they would likely fit a different profile (such as other specified dissociative disorder (OSDD-1)). But for the sake of the example, let’s include it.

So depending on the person’s condition and level of amnesic barrier, this could vary. BUT also since awareness is what shifts, then every aspect of the individual that depends upon that awareness necessarily shifts as well. So every alter may necessarily have access and remember every memories and experience independently of the person’s condition.

But since shifting means that awareness (as a whole) become aware of another reality (which also means becoming aware of someone else, with their brain, past and life, etc) the alter fronting may not impact anything. If the conscious experience of the person who you shift into is not be divided (meaning your DR self doesn’t have DID), you (as awareness, as YOU) may experience life there just like anyone who dosent have DID (or any similar condition) does.

Basically, I cannot tell you with certainty if all of your alters will have conscious access to all of the memories from your shifting experience or not. And I cannot tell you with certainty how you will experience your DR either.

But for the second part, im pretty sure that youll experience it as someone who dosemt have DID (if your DR “self” dosemt have DID), because they’re brain will not be the same, their past and development will not be the same, their neural organization will not be the same, their learned behaviors will not be the same, any existing dissociative structure (is any) will not be the same, their sens of self will not be the same, their conscious experience will not be the same, their nervous system will not be the same, etc. The previous brain would not be generating the ongoing conscious experience anymore because awareness is no longer centered there.

In either case, the continuity belongs to the awareness of the person, not to any particular identity state or any particular brain.

I did my best to answer everything I could to the best of my ability and knowledge, and with our current knowledge of shifting and of DID, is really hope this helped in any way!

-Apeiron

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Last night I went to sleep with a thought looping in my head like a mantra:

 I want to make 5k a day

Not someday, not eventually, but now

And this morning, I woke up to an opportunity that didn’t even exist for me a few days ago the chance to manufacture candles in bulk

Yes, candles I didn’t have a candle business, I wasn’t planning one and yet, here it was a door that opened out of nowhere, waiting for me to walk through

People think manifestation is about sitting in bed and “positive vibing” your way into new realities but it’s more scientific, more ancient, more intentional than that

When you fall asleep holding a thought, your subconscious doesn’t just process it, it codes it. In yogic science, this is called samskara imprinting, every mental image, every strong desire, stamps itself onto the subtle layers of your mind

Sleep is the moment the guardrails of logic weaken, the subconscious is open, suggestible, malleable. Thoughts repeated before bed slip through the cracks and enter the deeper mind the space that doesn’t know the difference between imagination and reality

In quantum terms, you are collapsing wave functions into possibility and in spiritual terms, you are planting seeds in the astral soil

Here’s the wild part I wasn’t into candles before this and I wasn’t researching them, I wasn’t planning to sell them, but symbols have their own intelligence

Candles are flame, wax, vessel are alchemical objects. They are both material and symbolic a carrier of fire, light, scent, and atmosphere. Every culture has lit candles for prayer, ritual, remembrance, and creation.

So when the opportunity came, I realised of course it had to be candles. The universe doesn’t send you random things, it sends you archetypes wrapped as opportunities

My desire wasn’t just about money, it was about creation, warmth, transformation and the candle an object that turns wax (matter) into flame (spirit) was the perfect mirror of that frequency

The strangest part wasn’t the candle opportunity itself — it was how quickly it appeared.

A few days ago: no candle business Last night: a focused desire

This morning: a bulk manufacturing door opens

When people say manifestation is instant, this is what they mean.

The timeline from thought → reality compresses when you:

Hold a clear desire, not vague, not “someday.” Sharp, specific, energetic

Detach from the how. I didn’t force the route, I didn’t ask what business should I start, I simply placed the order with the universe

Surrender to symbols. If you’re too rigid, you miss the unexpected form your manifestation comes in

I didn’t plan this business, but it came and that’s the thing about manifestation it doesn’t need your perfect plan, it needs your openness, your courage to say yes when reality surprises you

Last night I whispered a number into the dark and this morning the universe whispered back in wax and flame

And maybe that’s the whole point manifestation isn’t just about receiving

guess who woke up with everything they manifested?

i used to spend nights literally afraid to manifest because the idea of failure was so terrifying to me but… it’s not even that hard. i know your brain wants it to be hard because “but i can’t have everything!” or something. which is not true. everyone overcomplicated it with terms like “3D” and imagination and shit, just DECIDE for the love of god.

you have it? ok. keep moving what are you waiting for? YOU HAVE IT!!! why are you looking back every five seconds?? you just said you had it you dimwit.

I literally got everything I wanted overnight because I got sick of methods and decided to just decide (assume) and not give a fuck about what anyone or anything else had to say. and now i have my dream body, dream life, dream everything, everything i’ve been wanting for years.

yes seriously it IS that easy, just assume and decide and persist and then you can have everything you’ve been crying over. yes, it is that easy. you don’t need the recipe to the universe or to lay in one spot until you go numb and the stars align and you start to glow bright pink. do it in class. do it on the street. do it while you’re crying. decide. and you’re done.

it’s that easy.

deadass. you have it so wtf are you looking for?? period my love I'm glad you've come to this realization. it's that easy.

the thing you spent months worrying about

became the easiest manifestation of your life.

that's how manifestation works.

first,

your subconscious accepts it.

then,

your reality announces it.

never the other way around.

which means...

if your outer world hasn't changed yet,

it says absolutely nothing about what's happening behind the scenes.

flowers grow underground

long before anyone calls them beautiful.

your manifestation is doing the same.

To believe shifting is an innate ability for everyone and call yourself/others (a) master shifter(s) is contradictory. Master implies it’s a skill and while there are skills that may help you that you can learn, they aren’t mandatory.

I love this question, the multiverse is infinite there is nothing you can't have

A lot of people I see on here are planning to live full on lives in every DR of theirs. Nothing wrong with that, been there done that, always a solid option. You can be way more unserious about these things, however.

you cannot think your way into a shift.

all the theories, the information, the physics and the metaphysics and all—that’s so fun, yes, and so wonderful, but you can’t think your way into a shift.

there is nothing in the world that will teach you to shift. no amount of knowledge of physics, philosophy, or spirituality will teach you. it’s not in neville’s book, not in any religious book, not even in the shifting community itself.

there’s no step by step, full proof method. there’s nothing to learn from the outside.

so give up that search. accept it. accept that this is you. it’s always been about you and within you.

— so I know what yall are thinking, “ what does she mean by again?? “ check this post!! You’ll understand. So let’s get to HOW I did it, okey??

So I just laid down, found a VERY comfortable position and started affirming I am pure consciousness but how I affirmed is kind of important. So I draw a star while affirming… yeah that sounds completely stupid, let me explain.

So as I draw one line of the star, I affirmed I am. Then the other line, I affirmed, pure. Then wait, I’ll draw!!

like this… does this even make sense? I am not sure but it surely helps!! it helps with both staying focused and affirming at the same time!!

Since your focus is on drawing the star, you won’t think about something else that can take your attention from the void state!! Also since you’re affirming at the same time, it helps with your focus staying on entering the void!!

Well I hope this helps yall because it did helped me!! I was randomly doing this in my head and I started affirming too and in like maybe less than 5 minutes, I started having symptoms of entering void.

Let’s try the jumping jack method. A lot of people always ask me how to “regulate”, what that even means and how it can help. Please don’t complicate it. We aren’t complicated. We are human. The word regulate itself can be taken differently depending on the person, but at the end of the day it’s just a word, and you decide how much power that holds over you and your outcomes. Now going back to the human part, recognize yourself as such and treat yourself accordingly. You aren’t a dog needing to be trained, you aren’t a baby needing to be cradled, you aren’t an ant that’s going unnoticed. If you feel this way, if you view yourself so lowly, then you’re being selfish.

Selfish enough to stop yourself from being happy. Selfish enough to stop yourself from choosing a good day. Selfish enough to stop yourself from thinking about better days ahead. But that’s okay, it happens. That’s human too. And you should give yourself that grace because nobody else will for you. Why not? Well because it all starts from within, you keep saying “I create my reality” then it’s yours right? Not mine, not your neighbors, not their dogs. But if you’re not believing it, if you’re not assuming so, then what good does repetition do? This is why some methods work for people and some don’t. You can repeat anything to yourself a billion times, you can have high frequency guru playing in the back while you script 10 pages and drink moon water too. It’ll work for your friend and yet here you are still watching YouTube videos on how to write their name 3 times in red ink. Like okay girl.

So regulate. Take a step back and acknowledge you’ve gone a bit overboard. Why the heck are you working so hard? I thought manifesting was supposed to be easy, according to all these sources on tumblr and all the big accounts on YouTube and the several reddit threads you scrolled through. Let’s get back to that real quick. No you don’t have to script it, that can get boring or nerve wracking quick for some people, again, totally human btw. No you don’t have to go to the gym and thug it out on the bench press like you’re competing somewhere. No you don’t have to listen to the latest guoba subliminal and then go subliminal shopping which sends you into the endless rabbit hole. No you don’t have to do all this extra shit. And trust me I say this from personal experience, clearly…

To those who have mastered it and know, they don’t even have to do the jumping jacks, but it really did work for me as a placebo type thing, which sometimes it’s okay to admit we want. No we don’t need anything, it’s a choice yet again. But the quickest way I stopped overthinking, getting so anxious or even allowing the bad thoughts to drown me into hell, was by getting up immediately and doing jumping jacks. I always tell people this when they ask for my advice and it helps every single time, or at least that’s what they tell me. But hey, I always affirm for people who read my blogs and it’s my reality and perspective so of course it’s going to work, try it and see the results yourself! Yes I’m confident because I’ve acknowledged that power within me. No it’s not magic, it’s just a choice of acknowledgement that this is true and it works.

Try it out next time. If the scripting, the subs, the yoga and the walks outside aren’t easing your mind, just get the hell up real quick and do a few jumping jacks and go about your day. You’re having the thought again? Like right after? Okay do the jumping jacks again. At some point you’re gonna be sick of getting up and doing some stupid jumping jacks and you’re gonna find a way to either move on or do something that takes your mind off whatever you’re wanting and you can detach easily. Sometimes it takes one jumping jack session and sometimes it takes 20. Don’t hate yourself if it takes 20, every day is a new opportunity to put yourself first and grow out of the old habits. That’s okay. Regulating doesn’t mean avoiding, it means choosing the better story even if you feel like it’s all going to shit. Feelings sometimes cant be controlled but our choices can. Which then affect those feelings even further. It’s up to you whether or not you want to continue the cycle you’re in.

Free your mind from the shackles you’ve put on yourself and really understand that you deserve the good things in this life. It’s truly as easy as people say, you’ve just got to take a step back and realize you’re the only one stopping yourself from achieving it. During these times, don’t push harder, give yourself grace, get up, force yourself to choose differently and watch your world change. That’s true regulation.

-waking up with a new face/body/height/everything

-people that wronged me becoming fat and ugly

-dating a hot millionaire

-manifesting anything overnight

-moving to NYC alone at 15

-changing my whole face

-revising my parents to be rich

-my fictional boyfriend in real life

-being tall even with short parents

-changing my whole appearance

-becoming a model for img models

-getting a penthouse for free

-random people spoiling me

-becoming rich

-changing bone structure

-becoming popular

-shifting anytime

Keep affirming and choosing the new story until it becomes the dominant one