Holding your hand
Matt Murdock x reader. Reader is in last years of college.
No warning except: this is my first time publishing a fic. The style may not be right, english isn't my first language and basically this is for me because I need something to be happy.
Matt knew something was wrong. You came home late and tried to greet him as usual without signaling you day full with anxiety. He knew about you problems and had helped in various occasions
But those times had been easier because you had let him in. This day was different. Plopped your bag in the hallway and left it there after you changed. That was unusual because you always hurried for it to keep doing schoolwork. Matt had asked if you had finished your work and you said that you had. "Do you want to order takeout to enjoy the night free of work?" "Are you not going out?" "Not today, wound is still pretty fresh and I have to leave a couple of days for the new information". "Yeah, that'll be great actually".
Once the food arrived you went to the couch along with Matt and you put on a podcast. It was a historical podcast because even if you were not feeling great you were still a nerd. Once you finished he signaled for you to go cuddle with him until the podcast was over. He would play with your hands because he knew that you usually would hurt them when you were anxious. You gave him the right hand not wanting to let him feel the left. But just as he suspected he gently forced you go give it to him and he felt the recently opened cuts in your finger. "What happened my love? I know you have been anxious but I didn't want to push you to tell me". You felt a knot in your throat and closed your eyes because you had been discovered.
"I feel like I'm stopping you from having a life". Matt was taken back by this. What made you think that? He loved you beyond your understanding and he made sure that you knew that. "Oh sweetheart why do you say that? Where is this coming from?" "It's just- you already went through my ages. You have a job, you save the city, you have "grown up" life". He chuckled at this expression. You had been using it from the beginning of your relationship. "Don't laugh! I can see the way women your age look at you. You are a great man with a lot of opportunities. But I feel like you are stuck with a baby like me. You have had to hold my hand through so many things and it will keep being like that. I don't want you to get tried of having to take care of me. You could be with someone as awesome and mature as you. Plus aside from me being a baby I'm a mental unwell baby". You always had to add a little humour to your self deprecating.
Matt was really worried about you and just pulled you into the tightest hug ever.
"I am with someone as awesome as me. I have enjoyed every step of the way and I knew what I was getting into from the very beginning. Believe me, if I didn't want you more than life itself I would not be here. I don't mind holding your hand for the rest of our lives. I do it because I want to, not because you need me to. Sure I help you with things but it's not like I do them for you. You are so capable of so many things. But also strong enough to ask for help when you need to. I love you more than you can imagine and I want to keep holding your hand forever".
At this point you were crying into his shirt and could barely stop when you looked up to look at him. "That almost sounds like a proposal Matty" you chuckled in an effort to lighten up the mood. "Well it kind of is, my love. I didn't want it to be like this but I have known from the first day at the cafe. I want to be with you forever". You couldn't believe what he had just said. Indeed you were a match for each other. Both riden with guilt but also helping the other through it. "I know what you may be thinking. We can wait until you finish your degree. We can wait until you are ready. I just know that I am when you are".
How did you get so lucky. You never thought you would find your match in this world and finally you had. "Matt, I am ready this very second. If you asked me to go get married tomorrow morning I would even wake up before you". He laughed at this and started showering you with kisses. "Should I start calling you my fiancé?". "I would love nothing more in the world, but I would like a ring you know". He chuckled at your remark. He already had the ring prepared. He had bought a fidget ring because he knew how much you loved those. "To holding your hand forever".
