Still alive.

i have a file or folder on my pc that i want to share with other people. let's call it gayshit.mp3

unfortunately gayshit.mp3 is 750mb and im not paying for discord nitro so i need another way to send it

i put it into qbittorrent and it makes a torrent file. this is essentially a very small file that points to gayshit.mp3 so other computers can find it. kinda like a treasure map

i send this tiny file to my friend, who loads it into qbittorrent. their computer takes a moment to find mine over the vast expanse of cyberspace and then (as long as my pc is running and the file is still where it should be), it gets copied from my hard drive to theirs

this is the cool part: if somebody else loads that tiny file, they can download it from both of us. if i'm offline but my friend is on, the third person can still get it. this also means that if two people have separate halves of the file, they can download the other half from each other. as long as some combination of people have the pieces between them, they can all have the whole thing.

crucially this does not require a server!!! you can just upload the file to a few people and as long as they keep it, it's still accessible. as long as somebody, somewhere is still connected, it's available forever. the only way it goes away is if everybody disconnects from it.

Now, at 29, I’m lowkey having a panic attack because my academic email is filled with middle schoolers wanting me to answer their questions about pygmy raccoons and I keep putting off answering them because I’m so overwhelmed with all the other raccoon stuff I have to do.

idk had a lonely birthday awhile ago and been thinking thoughts

(or maybe feb 6 mewtwo was only the first viable mewtwo-like lifeform from mew and not cerulean cave mewtwo, eh)

Mewtwo knows it's at least 30 years old (the constant sedation and medications made the first few...years(?) very fuzzy), and it knows its actual year of birth is written down somewhere, and it made the decision not to look

Kaleido knows, and therefore both Ela and Vanilla know too, but it's not relevant to its current state so they don't bring it up. It hasn't been here long enough for its birthday to roll around, but Ela at least plan on a gift of some sort. Vanilla is not sure she’s close enough to broach the subject with it, and Kaleido can't keep track of days well enough to consider birthdays important

As for Mewtwo itself, when the day does come...

Stupid doodle of this post that did numbers on my other blog lol

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