Apex Mentis

There are so many reasons why you never should:

I'm sometimes sullen, often shy, acutely sensitive,

My fear erupts as anger, I find it hard to give,

I talk about myself when I'm afraid

And often spend the day without anything to say 

But I will make you laugh

And love you quite a bit

And hold you when you're sad. 

I cry a little almost every day

Because I'm more caring than the strangers ever know,

And, if at times, I show my tender side

(The soft and warmer part I hide) 

I wonder

Will you be my friend? 

A friend 

Who far beyond the feebleness of any vow or tie

Will touch the secret place where I am really I,

To know the pain of lips that plead and eyes that weep,

Who will not run away when you find me in the street

Alone and lying mangled by my quota of defeats

But will stop and stay - to tell me of another day

When I was beautiful. 

Will you be my friend?

There are so many reasons why you never should;

Often I'm too serious, seldom predictable the same,

Sometimes cold and distant, probably I'll always change.

I bluster and brag, seek attention like a child.

I broud and pout, my anger can be wild, 

But I will make you laugh

And love you quite a bit

And be near when you're afraid. 

I shake a little almost every day 

Because I'm more frightened than the strangers ever know 

And if at times I show my trembling side

(The anxious, fearful part I hide) 

I wonder, 

Will you be my friend? 

A friend 

Who, when I fear your closeness, feels me push away

And stubbornly will stay to share what's left on such a day

Who, when no one knows my name or calls me on the phone,

When there's no concern for me - what I have or haven't done -

And those I've helped and counted on have,

oh so deftly, run.

Who, when there's nothing left but me,

Stripped of charm and subtlety,

Will nonetheless remain. 

Will you be my friend? 

For no reason that I know

Except I want you so.

Where are you, my Heart? Where are you? I am searching for you. Are you out there? Are you looking for me, too? Where are you, my Dear? Who are you? Are you feeling the same desire? Are you longing, are you yearning for me, too? You are my life, ‘cause I am a seeker. I am searching for you. Where are you, my Love? Are you there? I am feeling your absence all the time: that big old hole in my heart. Where are you, my Destiny? Are you lonely, too? When I am meditating, my deepest inside is crying. When I am listening to the wind. You are whispering to me from afar. I have nothing to hold you. I have nothing to give to you.  Just me. I don’t know where to go.  I looked for you into the world. I looked for you into my mind. I dug for you into my soul.

Jo Nakashima - Origami Tutorials