Parallel Flux

If I was the same person as before, I would be in a depressed state right now. I would have been cut myself off from everyone. decline all outdoor activities. Ignore messages. And keep myself shut in my room. Funny is, I don't have to make an effort to do that. These days, I don't have as much accountability as before. I don't get old-time hangouts. I'm not even part of the last options anymore.

To be honest, interactions make me feel really loved. Time is indeed one of my best love languages. They say love language is something you don't receive as a child. I get a lot of silent treatments. I don't wanna force myself to be clingy with others. I want it naturally.

But still, why don't I get angry about it. I feel hurt yet I can't blame them.

I knew I wanted to see

I'm starting to get a sense of it. I'm seeing new faces take over the old ones, yet I'm still doing the same. I'm progressing slowly because I believe it's better this way.

However, it has recently occurred to me that I should perhaps increase my pacing. Perhaps the reason I'm so far behind is that I didn't plan to move forward aggressively, which is not my style. I have a tendency to mock things up whenever I take a step forward.

So, being cautious is a good thing, right?

All I have now is faith

These past few days have left me feeling uneasy. Nothing comes to mind when I think about it.

I told them not to push thru with the business using all their savings without backup. They got mad and say "You have no idea".

I feel so useless

I feel irrelevant

Listen to my storms

TIME

EFFORT

FEEL

COMPLIMENTS ACQUIRE

Occasionally feeling rejected and ignored.

Once you get something, you'll want more

Sadly, we can only hold a certain amount.

It started as a hobby

Can’t say I’m an expert but I’m happy with my progress.

And look, I’m also taking more portrait shots too

Yet we will keep on living

Our may paths may cross