AnythingButSimple

Life is a revengeful bitch sometimes but this doesn’t mean you can’t survive if not even thrive. I’ve been through some weird, and intense experiences in the past two years. A vital thing I realized is that you can’t give up on what you want whether it’s a job, a relationship, or even a picture you’re trying to draw. I’ve lost friendships, jobs, and probably even more than I can say. Each of those led me to something better. I do not regret anymore, I accept. I realize that those friendships ended for a reason whether you grow apart, have different interests, or its just time. It does not hurt me, it makes me happy to have those experiences and memories from each person. Those ended friendships bring you to new ones, suited for your next journey. Sometimes people hold on, when there’s no point to anymore. You’ll be happier when you let go. Life changes, and that’s okay.  Intimate Relationships— well, those are always complicated yet completely and wholeheartedly worth it. I stuck through a relationship that was rocky for a year-ish and I am the happiest person that I didn’t give up. It is the most passionate, interesting, intelligent, fun relationship I have ever had. That is not worth giving up. It is a relationship where every single part of me is being met by another person and I couldn’t be more thankful for that if not Lucky to have found such a bond. When you find a person that will change with you, support you, love you …never let them go. Recently, I left my job due to the fact I wasn’t happy there and had a family emergency. Though I was scared shitless for the next step, I did it. I then was offered a chance to work in Fashion and Social Media, something I have been dying to try. Amazing opportunities kept coming my way. Imagine if I didn’t accept some aspects of life, and stayed in bed or complained that Life sucks…

So here’s a couple tips on how to thrive, not just survive :) 

1) Bad shit may happen more than usual, don’t let it get you down. Become better, make it better because you can. 

2) LET GO. Let go because you can’t change the past. You can change the future. 

3) Work out- do something for yourself. I find yoga to fill my soul spiritually and physically. 

4) Don’t give up. You want to become a Nurse or CEO of a Corporation…then do everything possible to get there. You failed once? So what, people fail 3 or more times.

5) Love. Love your big heart away.

6) 99.9% of the time, everything happens for a reason. The reason will eventually pop up into your life. 

7) Never Settle. Find that one that leaves you breathless even after the so-called “HoneyMoon Phase” :)

8) Forgive. Forgive the people who did you wrong. In the end, it doesn’t matter. Move forward. 

9) Extra Materialistic things don’t actually matter. Don’t base your whole life out of “want”. Go TRAVEL. 

The armored doors swing on the hinges presenting the balcony where my heart skips a beat into the scenery the orange sun reflects off the turquoise oceans waves, making me squint, my already small oval eyes.

The southern coastline lies at the mouth of a deep ravine surrounded by dramatic cliffs, I hope I don’t slip. Looking to my left, villas sweep over the land and to my right, restaurants swarming with people Oh, what a sight.

I look forward grab my Limoncello and sip it down. My face cringes from the sour tangy taste, I realize that this is a heavenly place.

Falling back on the frigid tiled floor relieves me from the blazing sun with morning breeze bringing salt-water air into every breath I take.

Winter day upon me, the snow cascades downward. White flakes float gently encompassing my face, swishing back and forth. The wind whistles its way around me, my face feeling as if I have been hit over and over again.

Melting away like rain drops, crowning my head. I escape inside before my hair becomes disheveled. I embrace this empty space. A coldness permeates around the cabin, touching the very marrow of my bones. The walls look bare, I can get used to this.

Winter nights I sit in the brown suede chair, fibers sifting side to side aligning to the imprints of my body. Head between my crouched, warm legs I wonder why I decide to come this place. Searching for a private world of my own to protect me from the real world surroundings bundling up in a blanket I look at the flaming fire Smoke rising, wood burning Slowly the sun starts to come up

There once was a Bunny, who hopped around for a lot of money. She was tender and fluffy yet her claws were nothing but cruddy. Bunny preyed on a buck and started a muck, only to find herself stuck in a big ole rut. Time floated by and Bunny became older, finding herself a loser and loner. The loner went to store and found a colossal carrot to indulge in. Silly little Bunny had a little too much and fell asleep to the sound of the sheep. Her eyes would not open. Her mind was surely absent. To make the matters worse, I think Bunny probably took some acid. Down the hole she went, into the abyss. She might not make it back. I guess Bunny is just a little too adventurous. A little girl Alice came waddling toward Bunny with malice, but once she was closer the sensation just shattered. Poor little Bunny was shriveled and breathless.

People don’t change, life doesn’t change. That is a bunch of well…bullshit, excuse my french if you will. Change is a troublesome topic to mention in conversation, which peoples faces cringe and it seems as if you were explaining the world is going to be invaded by aliens…yes, aliens. But yesterday I engaged in a conversation with my dear friend about people changing. She eloquently mentioned how its quite tough for someone to change their ways after being stuck in their own mud for however many years. Though I think she is absolutely right, I still think it’s possible. Recently, my life has been all about change. Whether its something minuscule like a difference in decor or something momentous like moving home from college. Different experiences cause us to change and grow into the people we want to be…or unfortunately don’t want to be. Life changes, and so do people. We change for people we love, we change to better ourselves, we change because maybe we just suck. For whatever reason, it happens. It happens, and it wraps its way around us to make sure we know its happening. Change is not something to be afraid of though… it’s something to embrace. That’s life and hey, if you have someone there to go through these changes then kudos to you and don’t be witless enough to take that for granted.

Sat down at my desk,

restless and ungratified

looking to find nothing around me

no breath

no air

am I dead?

Just afflicted,

I guess

taken to a place

I open my eyes to find…