anyatra, a weblog of elsewhere

You sent him to bring me back to life, didn't you? 

Now I'm drifting like the clouds at sunset

I don't know if you know yet

But I was falling for you

Wasting all of my time

Daydreaming

It's when we love

We hurt the most

But if we never love

Perhaps I see vulnerabilities in you, vulnerabilities that I have in common with you. And so do you.

What you perceive as a vulnerability in me, you have been thinking of the same as a flaw in yourself. An undesirable flaw, something to fix, to change in yourself. Something you don't want as part of yourself anymore because it simply hurts too much.

But.. you see that vulnerability in me that we share.. and you want to nurture, protect and soothe it in me.. and that way simultaneously you nurture, protect and soothe that same vulnerability in yourself. That vulnerability is a core part of you, natural to you. To change or remove it would go against your own nature. And going against your nature will only cause you suffering.

So the answer to the problem would be to somehow maintain that vulnerability in yourself.. stop thinking of it as a flaw.. cherish it.. allow yourself to be open to possibilities.. AND at the same time.. WHAT?

Build an armour around yourself? What sort of an armour would that be?

OR.. maybe all that was poppycock.. and I've just been projecting.