sometimes i think

tidbit no.1 -> Graf's eyes are yellow bc he's concentrated (hard to tell i know sorry)

tidbit no.2 -> so the white thing behind Graf's head is supposed to be a bandage over where the chip is, and it's stained with blood (plus a bit of his shirt collar and hair) bc he ripped it out himself :(

tidbit no3. -> in today's stream, a green butterfly appeared a lot for Juan, so i decided to include it here since it seems to be widely theorized that it's Verde watching over him (Verde is like... a God? that used to be another multiverse ver of Juan, from what I understand... 90% of all Juan cubitos are destined to die :( )

tidbit no.4 -> in line with the previous tidbit, the lantern is green to represent Verde (it was originally blue bc Soul Lantern) and I had also made Juan's socks green, but uuuuh yeah you can't see that AT ALL

I LIED, IT ISN'T SO SILLY OR SO FUN (but it is so pink!)

yeah... one night at 1 am i saw pixels on fit's skin on NameMC and i haven't been the same since (and neither has anybody over on twt... i am sorry skjadnkjasm)

oh and here's a doodle too:

Hello !! so, if you've followed me here for a while you know i LOVEEE Oakworthy angst with Hermie 2.0 and i've been building a story of sorts between the two and the development of their relationship. I've mainly drawn a few comics here and there, but I actually have like... a lot more in my head that I haven't drawn or written down yet, and this playlist is a HUGE part of it !

I don't have it all properly planned out, so for now, i'll just dive in to some details i left on this drawing that give an insight for where the story is going:

Hermie 2.0 / Hermy Details

the flowers in the back are a Mezereon and Jonquils, which, respectively, mean "Desire to Please" and "I Desire a Return of Affection"

the text in the border are main lyrics from each phase song that best represent his state of mind during that phase...

Phase 1; Sophomore Year: "Want to see through to understand you / Isn’t something missing? (Twenty-something spinstress) / Come on clementine, open up"

Phase 2; Junior Year: "[...] I'll do anything / For you to love me again / If you don't like me now / I will change for you"

Phase 3; Senior Year: "[...] and you told me / "If you could see yourself through my eyes / You would hate him"

Phase 4; Epilogue: "Seeing life different with same old eyes / Now we know better, we push it through"

all songs displayed represent, in chronological order, his feelings of both Normal and their relationship, alongside his inner thoughts/feelings :]

Normal Details

the plants in the back are a Weeping Willow and Black Mulberries, which, respectively, mean "Mourning" and "I Shall Not Survive You"

the text in the border are main lyrics from each phase song that best represent his state of mind during that phase...

Phase 1; Sophomore Year: "Maybe I would be okay if I let this go forever / Send it into space and watch the planets turn"

Phase 2; Junior Year: "Tengo unos tatuajes bajo de la piel / Que no cicatrizaron y otros se reencarnan" (Translation: "I have some tattoos under my skin / That didn't scar and others that regrow")

Phase 3; Senior Year: "You don't know me / I wanna be happy / I'm ready to walk into my room without lookin' for you"

Phase 4; Epilogue: "Todo bien y todo mal / Mientras todo el mundo duerme / Yo me trato de sanar" (Translation: "All good and all bad / While the whole world sleeps / I try to heal myself")

all songs displayed represent, in chronological order, his feelings of both Hermie and their relationship, alongside his inner thoughts/feelings :]

Phases?

Now the fun part !

In my head, their story is divided in 4 phases, as seen above. Each one has a different dynamic within the relationship and different struggles.

Phase 1; Sophomore Year is more-or-less a "honeymoon phase" where they can coexist as friends while acknowledging they like each other... but that's an outsider's perspective of the relationship. In reality, one is battling with wanting to be seen as his own person, and the other is battling with the knowledge that holding on is wrong, but can't let go.

Phase 2; Junior Year is the catalyst point. Desperation leads to extremes and with the desire to return to normalcy they both try to revert to who they once were, Normal trying to be chipper cheery again and Hermy trying to be Hermie 1.0. However, this latter event is what breaks the bubble Normal's emotions were in, and he starts seeing Hermie 1.0 dressed as the Joker in the corner of his eyes everywhere he goes, so close and yet so out of reach.

Phase 3; Senior Year is the phase I've explored the most, and it's the end of their relationship. Hermy is starting to become his own person, stepping out of a role he knows he can't fill, but the only thing holding him back is his love and worry for Normal. Unfortunately, Normal has spiraled. The Joker is more present than ever, he can hold conversations and tells Normal everything he wants to hear, fulfilling the fantasy of having Hermie 1.0 back again, but the version of him he wants to see. Normal is closed off, the grief overwhelming, all he can think about is to run. They both hurt each other, even if they don't know they are hurting the other.

Phase 4; Epilogue is the resolution. It's been 20 years since the pair have graduated from High School, 20 years since Normal has seen anybody from San Dimas, 20 years they have both had time to heal and reflect on their high school days. One last conversation in the soccer field bleachers closes the chapter on their relationship... and that is all I will say for now (i say, trying to be mysterious, but really bc this phase is still a work in progress)

now that i've revealed the playlist name... i'll be using the hashtag "buildabear hc" from now on for everything related to these headcanons / au !! :D

So, the background is actually a picture from Martin Frobenius Ledermüller’s Microscopic Delights, and it's on the public domain review page jaja

It's this one: