a leap of faith.

i call my parents and say ‘yeah i can’t do family stuff tonight, i got too much stuff to do for school’ and i e-mail my professor and say ‘i can’t do my assignments tonight, work got crazy’ and i text my boss and say ‘sorry i can’t work late tonight, i gotta some family stuff’ and through this triangulation of deceitful excuses i at last will be free

all i am is a burden to everyone around me

I wanna be the woman that everyone stares at whether out of love, hate, or envy. I wanna be the woman who goes for walks every morning with her dog before stopping to grab a quick coffee at a small, cozy café. I wanna be the woman the barista falls in love with at first sight even though I'm a hot, sweaty mess. I wanna be the woman servers want to return every night just to see her. I wanna be the woman who goes to a fine-dinning restaurant by herself because she doesn't need anyone to treat her; she treats herself. I wanna be that woman.