Me when I catch myself thinking "I wonder what it's like to be chosen by somebody" but then I remember my best friend chooses to be my best friend and my mutuals choose to follow me and the minimum wage employee chooses to give me sincere kindness that I remember years later because I was going through a hard time and it meant a lot

I miss the art hoes, the blackout events, the Black alt-fashion girlies who got me into Taobao hauls. I still prefer Tumblr over other sites but the vibe shift after the 2016 & 2020 BLM content crackdowns is crazy. Pop culture awareness specifically took a major hit. What's even trending right now. Owl House, Barbie, and Hannibal. Okay.

this isn’t just “durr hburr mainstream thing Bad i need to feel Cool” it’s just that like. collecting ANYTHING popular is such a slog to me. i love pokemon cards and i love collecting them and i love playing the tcg and i’ve been into pokemon cards for like 15 years and i think they are fun. but the recent wave of “buy them, invest in them, flip them, resell them, snatch up a whole store’s stock” is soooo exhausting. because you literally cannot avoid it as part of the hobby. it is an awful time to try to get into pokemon cards or tcg because you cannot physically get your hands on new cards. and the ppl paying hundreds to thousands of dollars to buy up new releases and restocks are not into pokemon cards for the cards - they want the monetary or social capital that comes with either (a) having extremely rare graded chase cards or (b) ‘investing’ in unopened packs that will purposefully sit in storage for the next fifteen years until they balloon in value. it’s not about pokemon it’s about profit. it’s not about the thing it’s about how to harness the idea of the thing for personal gain. you can’t engage with the Idea without necessarily inviting the Meta Idea.

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