RAT KING

hey guys, i just got back to school from vacation tday and i need to vent. so b4 i left this guy i like who's also my ex said that he still liked me and said we could get back togethor, and i was super happy obvs, so 4 two weeks i believed tht he liked me and acctually wanted to be w/ me again, then tday we were hanging out and he gave me this letter, and it said that he didnt acctually like me and he js felt kinda pressured by our friends, and he felt uncomfertable whenever i would be close to him, and he said that i made him feel bad cause he said i was making fun of his dissability when i would point out his spelling mistakes, and i just feel so bad. i never meant to make him feel like that, im a touchy person so i hug everyone and he didnt really say to stop and when he did i would always stop emidietly but he said i would be defensive, and i wasnt making fun of his dissability i was js trying to help him with the spelling. im just so upset, i acctually though that he liked me, he let me believe for two weeks that he liked me, but he was just lying. im kind of upset at him but i also feel like i messed up so bad. i cant believe that i acctually thought that he wanted to be with me and that he acctually liked me when the entire time we were apart he never showed any sign of it. and in the letter he said that he wanted space but when i got back to class he was talking to me and acting like everything was normal, it was really confusing, if he wants space from me then why would he act like nothing hapened and just hang out with me. idk what to do, i dont think im going to go to school tommorrow, all of my projects are with him and we sit beside each other. he was the only thing keeping me from hurting myself for a while and now i know how he rlly feels about me. i dont know if he even really likes me as a friend anymore, he seems kind of annoyed whenever i talk to him and it makes me so upset to see him react like that to me js being there.

hey so question, is it wierd that no matter how much i sleep im always tired, like i could sleep all day and wake up fealing like i stayed up for days. and its getting to be an issue, i just sleep so much trying to not be tired anymore, and it just makes me more tired. its not supposed to work like that, im not supposed to have a good night sleep and then wake up feeling like a person who never sleeps!!!??!