just one ant

My antenna is still twitching. The doctor on this side of the mound finally saw me. We ended up talking a while and went on a couple day trip around the mound. I just got back. Things arnt so bad I guess. Theyre about to finish up a new tunnel, then that'll be mine to clean. Ive never been alone to clean before. Its exiting to have more responsibility. Guess I cant slack off as much once I start though. Which is good, I always go a little crazy when I dont work for a while.

Fuck my last three post are from the same person

I could have all the friends in the world and I would still feel alone.

Everything makes me feel so empty. I miss my friend, its been so long since she left. Other people have gone missing from my life, but its like I vent every but of ache into her absence. I dont know what im supposed to do. Every one tells me I'm lonely, so that must be what I am. But that doesnt help. I just want to sleep. Maybe they were right dragging me away to the grave yard, maybe I should just be but to rest like those other ants.

Why is everything so tiring?

Ive been seeing her everywhere. In everyone I meet. My antenna is still twitching. The doctor doesnt seem concerned. Maybe im just over reacting to everything. I wish I could meet other ants like me. Everyone is nice, understanding. But I feel alone. I guess thats expected

Just found a way to purposely make my antenna twitch. Felt not good. Doctor will take my antenna. (Thats my antenna)