bitchcraft and misery.

Prelims pa lang namin but it feels like its already finals pota. Im so tired. Like after ng lecture exam namin sakanya, inemail nya na agad yung results and lol of course I failed AND 4 lang nakapasa don. Tapos sa lab exam naman, mej mas madali kesa sa lec exam. I was answering the questionnaire with a lil bit of enthusiasm kasi nga mas madali sya tapos pinahinga ko lang leeg ko kasi sumasakit na tapos pota pagkatingala ko, nakapost na sa projector yung grades namin sa lecture ng prelims??????????? PUTA?????? KELANGAN BA TALAGA IPAKITA YON HABANG NAG EEXAM KAMI???????? LIKE???? TANGINA WALA KA BANG AWAAAAA???? SIR?????? SANA NUNG PAG-UWI NA LANG NO????? TANGINA gustong gusto ko na magbreak down kanina habang nagsasagot ng lab exam puta sobrang ayoko na talaga.

You know that feeling when everything is overwhelming you up. Like you really didnt know what to do anything at all. Yung kahit anong aral mo parang wala namang napasok sa utak mo. Yung kahit nag-aral ka naman pero bakit puro bagsak pa rin mga quizzes mo? Yung gusto mo na lang sumuko sa lahat hahahahaha. I barely slept for the last 4 weeks para lang mag-aral kasi shet di naman ako matalino so I had to double my efforts, triple even. To the point that I was starting to feel empty and hollow on the inside. I couldnt help but wonder, kung ano pa ba kulang sa mga ginagawa ko? I gave it my all but I still couldnt make it. I just wished I was smarter because that way, I wouldnt try this hard.