“pray at night, and watch your life change as the sun rises.” - Maira Muhammad

I can feel myself changing. I see the difference in my behavior, my attitude, my thoughts, the new boundaries I’ve established. The groundwork has been laid. Let the transformation resume. I am ready for all that is coming to me.

what didn’t kill me made me a huge cunt

I'm learning a lot about the wealthy and how they get money and become rich essentially. they're mostly in debt. literally they're not afraid of living in debt. most of their things are all bought on credit and don't actually have real tangible money. all of this is unislamic, as Muslims are encouraged to deal with actual tangible money (gold, silver, anything with value but in this day and age, cash) and not interest -the rich thrive on interest accumulation- also debt in Islam is a huge problem as we're told to pay off our debts asap. with that being said, I think that the road to wealth and richness in America is corrupt and if someone doesn't care about God they just put themselves in millions of dollars of debt, die, pass the debt on to their kids and live their 'so called' rich life, the kids learn the trade and the borrow, buy, die cycle is continued for generations. but like...at what cost idk my soul is not to be sold for just a good time on this world so I'd rather not

My problem is I never healed I just kept going