i spent the first 25 years of my life feeling i was irrevocably fucked up incapable of coping with even the mildest problems in life just assuming id off myself at some vague point in the future and then i woke up one day completely fine and i don't know what to do with that

fucking weird being mentally stable for the first time ever in my life. things keep happening and im like okay :) ?????what is going on?

if anybody wants to know what working hospitality is like, i got yelled at bc there would be a wait for the quiche, went to ask the kitchen when there'd be more, found the manager crying in the cupboard, found two cooks yelling at each other in the dish well, and then got yelled at even more by the customer when i told them there would be no quiche forthcoming. all while being divebombed by a hoard of wasps that nobody knows how to get rid of

accidentally made a flat white that looked exactly like a pussy at work today. i was too ashamed to take a pic of it but i want you all to know.

when i pirate things i either say you know they are cool they would want me to have this or i say well they would not be okay with me not paying for this so fuck them theyre a dickhead and i will not give them my money. very good system i have.