noah

Clean bubbles to scrub through into my deepest well of hopes

Gliding strokes of fishes, foxes, apartments, & moving boxes

To glow through translucent skin

Have my desire cast shadows on the road

Dance alongside me, a circus crowd

A freak-show aglow

A grinning child ready front row for the show

And its raining popcorn and streamers

The sky a colorful silk tent crowded from doves set free

In a field of gag flowers, sprinklings through the air

Though I’m tethered to some unending rope

Agh! Untethered, what a joke

It washes away in an instant

Though I hear something distant

A foggy windowpane melded to cold sticky fingertips & noses

As we all watch this yearly season rerun

The flurries flying & sticking together right on time

Radiant hands wringing them into snowballs

Throwing them until early night falls

And you shine a light behind your newfound dragon’s breath

I laugh, sipping my hot chocolate

Whipped cream and snow stick to my upper lip

Skates drag over the crystalline valleys just as they did years and years ago around this time

As our woven gloves intertwine

And I don’t even feel the need to whine

To think October’s cliffs were so deathly high

And now I’m dancing with the falling leaves

As they reflect the red the red the red of me

& connect the thread to me

To some hope-sick yellow

Laying a path like crashing comet moths

Hind-wings just for a target

The real half must have left for April skies

Gliding down June hills

Now we lay with pieces of

Fragments of

Pretty Thing

With your perfect hair, you’re pulling me on a string

You tread over my heart

Jumpstart the beating

Behind the scenes of my dreaming

You play the main role

I see the twinkle in your eye

A twinkle so fleeting

I don’t even know you so why is my heart bleeding

One second past & we’re never meeting

Hold on to the thought, Pretty Thing

Hop Along

You’ve been bouncing up and down these tracks for too long

You hold these little deaths so close behind

The laugh lines and stitches down your sides

Tying yourself to rusted tracks

Become undone sweetness

And count the clouds as you fall

They float for you & you’ll miss them, all three-hundred & twenty-two

But they’ll disappear when you paw

So just fall

mash our faces to one

in a big white foamy mess

you even got behind my ears

as we glide our separate ways

ive melted a little into white soapy tubs

soaking in what was left before

holding on to the slippery mess

youve washed yourself of us and im sat in the suds

you find yourself in a different dud

she wont love you and thats okay

because neither will i

and she holds no apologies

that my cologne strides through your door when you least expect it

and when you follow the traces of me

you find you haven’t let go at all

& time leads you to call

cause you saw a fox & imagined our life on the sea

i dont beg but ill ask

will you come back to me

my pride wouldnt let it

i want to choose me & in one month you chose her

we’re on the same street though i never see your car

with my sweater hanging threadbare

i’m furious disdained as i ruffle your hair

as i hold you close, i whisper secrets i wouldnt even tell the dark

that life’s not fair even when you’re here in my arms

that the stars stray farther no matter the chart

everything burns away

but i’ll sit by the fire

this is a smoke signal to a higher power

the man inside the fire tower

and i’d say that too

it’s been a hunger strike

i find any way to get a taste of you

i am shameless in all respects

i want your calloused hands over my mouth

to laugh & say i’m a messy eater

i want to devour every thought of you & drown into the ether

i feel you all the time

alive in the back of my mind

what good was freedom when i long to be back inside

because pieces of me still have your name written all over them

if you know how to see it

im more obvious than i expected

its been like this for awhile

i hope you can forgive me

hold me like a child

show me your gapped tooth smile

i spoon the bowl in a whirl

as it undoes itself, the grease bubbles sit on the top

and i think of dumping it in the drain

to listen to some silent pain

i’m scared that’s what i’ll find

that i could bend them all along & they were just wasted time

confinements in the purest sense

that i obeyed an invisible fence

while others crossed the line, better than fine

to lose it all to remain so pure

to deny myself of joining the the hazy human blur

to dive into that lake of good & evil & find what i knew all along

until broken we stand still

the little devil fell from the sky into my dungaree front pocket

smashed between my best friend’s dragonfly locket

it fell from my eyes & bloomed the lightest violet

it played a tune from the boy with the violin

swept away and washed slowly back in

he rode along my spring bike ride

he kissed my hide as i tanned

i dont know why & i dont care

he sheared and dyed my hair

you swaddle a petrifying wish

that we are locked in a bind

that i wont be peeled like orange rind

that i stay soft, softer than

lather me in a maternal exoskeleton

a cold gelatin on the tongue

nymphomaniac, i take the plunge

i touch myself through hell

ill shed my chain mill shell

slimy red skin slipping through grasps

stifled wings & a molten gasp

she wraps my mind like spider webs

ill fly away but ill never put this to bed