Rules of time travel:
Reaction will often precede action. What appears to be senseless cruelty in the moment will be justified in some way, at some point. The people killing you have their reasons.
By the time the whole chain of events shows itself it will be too late, time travel or not.
What kills you is not guaranteed to offer you any respite.
The notion of unconditional love will kill you, badly. You do not love me in every universe. I do not love you in every universe. Cherish the exceptions.
Whatever power you gain will not be enough to make you not-hurt, not-scared, not-dying. If you manage to become a shark there are still bigger fish, more sharks. There is still the ocean.
Despite the temporal displacement your actions still have consequences. The people saving you have their reasons.
It is just as unwise to care as it is to stop caring. You will have to choose over and over again anyway.
At some point you will be someone else (action, consequence). This happens to everyone but for you that transformation is unlikely to go by invisible. The future can haunt just as well as any past.
There will never be a perfect point of balance where everything remains the same, but you know that already.
Many people, some of them probably you, will have ideas on the trajectory of you, citing action and reaction, displaced consequences you have to handle now. By the time you see the whole picture it will be too late. You will have to choose anyway.
You will remember things that have never happened. You will be to foreign places that have been or will be or are your home, around strangers who love you but a little to the left, plus-minus a cowboy hat.
You will wake up screaming from the things that killed you but didn't give you respite.
All of these are signs that you are still alive.















