#AE Musings for my personal posts, poems, thoughts, feelings, and otherwise unrelated to anything else. These are longer than one line at random throughout the day.
#Angela posting for uh posting about Angela. Ranging from small observations, opinions, to longer more analytical writing.
There might be some NSFW but I have not yet tagged any. It's extremely rare but still possible.
Not (properly) tagged posts are about a variety of things. Most prominent are of lighthearted topics, but there will be heavier and more important topics. You will see matters concerning transfeminism.
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What you find in this blog is terms of original posts is talking about thoughts I had, something I felt and wanted to express it, and sometimes, some kind of take on a piece of media (not as interesting as it may sound).
In terms of reblogs, it's whatever. Scroll for 10 seconds and you'll see.
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My ko-fi if you feel like being nice. Steam friend code 59507888.
Some colors under the cut. (Personal stuff and assorted things of other nature yet intrinsically the same)
You -can- call me Angela, it is my name, but if you find that confusing (considering the context of this blog), then you can simply address me by my url or by AE.
No, I don't kin her. The explanation is much simpler (she's simply very personally important) and yet extensive (I'd have to start from early life experiences to how I happened to develop as an adult). People, however, have kin assigned me in a way (in a jest and otherwise).
I do relate to her, and I've been told we share certain traits, but it takes a second looking through this blog to see we are quite different people. The primary thread of connection is in experiences and reactions to them.
I will include an index of my analyses here at some point. The #Angela Posting tag is small enough at the moment to not really inconvenience those that want to have a read, but it would still be cleaner to have it all in one place.
I am, regardless, very fixated. Haven't scared anyone with it yet, I think, and at least one person finds it endearing-
So, I'll just continue.
I'd like to clarify, too, that I have my boundaries with this, and I'd ask to please do not bring forth to me sexual content about her. At all.
Sorry, I do not want to see it. It's not that I don't think there's any discussion to be had here, but 9/10 times it's just material without any thought, and the other 1/10 is disconcertingly off the mark.
Additionally, while one might assume this intensity would correlate with romance, I promise you it doesn't. I do not see her that way. Please do not make that kind of comment, it's just awkward ("your wife" and such).
I can't really comment on ships for a similar reason. She's an aroace queen to me. I won't shut it down, and you can do whatever- I simply do not find it appealing, so I can't engage with it in any meaningful manner. I do have an immediate negative reaction to rolangela because of the overabundance of "the girl and the boy HAVE to date" type of engagement with either character. It's maddening.
I am an angebinah QPR believer. I think there's something interesting to explore there regarding similar themes and imagery in both of them, with certain specific conflicts and contradictions.
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As you can imagine, if you ever feel like talking about her, I am your gal. Hit me with your takes, your feelings, your thoughts, your questions- I adore her and I'm always happy to indulge.
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Fanart Library of Angelandria at 6196 files at the time of editing.
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terfs are equivalent to nazis to me. theyre both forms of white supremest ideology. as a jewish trans woman ive zero positive interest in the lives of either continuing.
I've been thinking about this a lot recently, they both came out of "socialist" movements which they broke off from primarily because they rejected marxist class struggle and substituted their own ideas of "class". for Nazis it was the national struggle, they argued that class conflict was over and that the real issue of the day was between nations. Mussolini was much the same, originally studying Marxism but threw out class struggle very early and quickly veered to the right, establishing "revolutionary" struggle on the basis of said nationalism. For terfs, they substitute sex-based struggle, even the original radical feminists like Firestone, Willis, and others, came out of socialist organizing to focus on sex-class as the primary originating oppression of all society. they argued that racism was actually a product of sexism and often drastically downplayed racism to bolster their feminism - (see Angela Davis' response to Firestone in women race and class, and Ellen Willis' retrospective in radical feminism and feminist radicalism. there's plenty of sources on the Nazi stuff out there but I don't have it on hand/by memory)
both of these groups use language of revolution while reinforcing the status quo, they're both incredibly racist and transphobic. it's rarely spoken about but the Nazis killed a lot of trans women specifically, not just queer people in general. they had a very specific agenda against transfeminity in particular and often experimented medically on trans women. meanwhile terfs are increasingly collaborating with right wing news networks, getting funding from fascists, and copying antisemitic Nazi rhetoric directly. and that's not even getting into Rowling's explicit Holocaust denial.
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speaking from experience, if you're a lesbian and you're attracted to a trans man then two options present themselves to you:
realize that you don't really see him as a man, or :
accept that you can be attracted to a man
a fork in the road like this would be a great place to examine your bioessentialist transphobia, but instead of doing that you can just ascend to a new enlightened plane and reach queer level 100 by deciding "welllll trans men can be lesbians"
a lot of advanced level 100 enlightened queer thinking is really just bioessentialism in disguise frankly
like, no, it's actually not level 100 gender to expect trans women to top you, you just see her as a man and instead of examining your transphobia you're pretending you exist on the next plane of queer thought high above us bottom feeders who foolishly think having a penis might not necessarily mean she wants to perform a traditionally masculine role for you in the bedroom
a lot of trans women I've met who initially discuss enjoying topping their partners have, over time, after getting space from the expectation to top, said that they've stopped enjoying topping and no longer want to do it
certainly a lot of trans women genuinely enjoy topping, but I think it's a lot fewer than many people imagine. we just aren't being given the space to genuinely explore what we want, often thanks to the presence of enlightened level 100 queers who see us as naive fools for thinking we might not want to top. how simple we are for not considering that Women Can Top Too! it's actually more radical for women to top! 😁
no amount of pretending to be an advanced queer thinker can paper over the fact that you expect trans men to be like women in their sexualities and you expect trans women to be like men in our sexualities. you are not level 100 you're level 1
I just don't think it's transfeminist at all to only engage with something when it pertains to you or mentions a group that you're a part of! It feels like a betrayal and it aches to know that transfeminist spaces aren't safe for people like me. I want to have a sisterhood with you girls, but is this what sisters do? Not help the girls that they have the social power to step on?
I've lost count of how many instances I've seen one of my white followers obviously going through my blog and liking/reblogging posts about trans girls, but skipping over posts about racialized people! It doesn't stop hurting.
ive noticed this very thing on my own blog, from friends mutuals and random people alike. where the more generalized the post is the more engagement it has. reblogs likes replies, people discussing the topic and actually Engaging with the post. but the posts about being a black trans woman? the posts SPECIFICALLY ABOUT HOW I NOTICE DISCUSSIONS ON RACISM GETTING IGNORED?? fucking guess! i am so sick and tired of you people ignoring us. im used to the slurs and the abuse and the fear of living in this skin, but seeing a friend give barely a glance when i talk about anti blackness hurts so fucking bad. why dont you care?? why don't any of you care??? would you care if i told you ignore us is itself racist?? do i have to (RIGHTFULLY) call you racists for you to give a shit?
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"hey it feels like even amongst people who considered themselves committed to social justice and at the recent high-water-mark of that social current, it's never been fully & satisfactorily discussed digested & absorbed that trans women consistently get depicted this vile way in media"
"um people have definitely mentioned that out loud before lol you are young and therefore stupid and entitled and though i'm not saying it i'm also implying that you (trans woman) are being overly sensitive and nitpicking and nobody cares lmao"
she's obviously right. what the fuck is wrong with you people. this is funny? this is some kind of Epic Own to you? you dunk-brained shit eating peanut gallery motherfuckers are so twitter poisoned that all someone has to do is be snide, they don't even need to have a point, you'll all bark and clap like fucking seals. kill yourselves
Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Rocky Horror Picture Show, Dressed to Kill, Ace Ventura: Pet Detective, this list is so much longer than you think it is no matter how long you think it is.
please help two brazilian trans women escape an abusive household
hi, everyone. the situation at home has gotten progressively worse, with my father turning physically abusive and breaking my nose a few weeks ago. Me and my gf need help to leave the house and rent a small place for ourselves, as well as pay for our meds and hrt. We are kind of in a desperate situation right now, and any amount would really help us.
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I mean, real answer? I don't reblog 99% of the anti-racist posts that cross my dash because they all have this type of guilt-tripping on the end. I thought we agreed ten or fifteen years ago that we're not spreading that shit. I see plenty of posts I would love to reblog if they didn't all end with "but you won't reblog this and that proves you're actually racist" or words to that effect
Tears that are driven by white guilt are self-indulgent. When we are mired in guilt, we are narcissistic and ineffective; guilt functions as an excuse for inaction. Further, because we so seldom have authentic and sustained cross-racial relationships, our tears do not feel like solidarity to people of color we have not previously supported. Instead, our tears function as impotent reflexes that don’t lead to constructive action. We need to reflect on when we cry and when we don’t, and why. In other words, what does it take to move us? Since many of us have not learned how racism works and our role in it, our tears may come from shock and distress about what we didn’t know or recognize. For people of color, our tears demonstrate our racial insulation and privilege.
I asked the woman of color I refer to in the opening of this chapter if I was missing anything in this list. This is her response:
It’s infuriating because of its audacity of disrespect to our experience. You are crying because you are uncomfortable with your feelings when we are barely allowed to have any. You are ashamed or some such thing and cry, but we are not allowed to have any feelings because then we are being difficult. We are supposed to remain stoic and strong because otherwise we become the angry and scary people of color. We are only allowed to have feelings for the sake of your entertainment, as in the presentation of our funerals. And even then, there are expectations of what is allowed for us to express. We are abused daily, beaten, raped, and killed but you are sad and that’s what is important. That’s why it is sooooo hard to take.
- White Fragility, Robin DiAngelo
I am asking you to deliberately seek out and engage with Black content creators. I am also asking you to notice when your racial guilt moves you to inaction, regard it as a problem worth solving, and solve it.
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