#AE Musings for my personal posts, poems, thoughts, feelings, and otherwise unrelated to anything else. These are longer than one line at random throughout the day.
#Angela posting for uh posting about Angela. Ranging from small observations, opinions, to longer more analytical writing.
There might be some NSFW but I have not yet tagged any. It's extremely rare but still possible.
Not (properly) tagged posts are about a variety of things. Most prominent are of lighthearted topics, but there will be heavier and more important topics. You will see matters concerning transfeminism.
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What you find in this blog is terms of original posts is talking about thoughts I had, something I felt and wanted to express it, and sometimes, some kind of take on a piece of media (not as interesting as it may sound).
In terms of reblogs, it's whatever. Scroll for 10 seconds and you'll see.
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My ko-fi if you feel like being nice. Steam friend code 59507888.
Some colors under the cut. (Personal stuff and assorted things of other nature yet intrinsically the same)
You -can- call me Angela, it is my name, but if you find that confusing (considering the context of this blog), then you can simply address me by my url or by AE.
No, I don't kin her. The explanation is much simpler (she's simply very personally important) and yet extensive (I'd have to start from early life experiences to how I happened to develop as an adult). People, however, have kin assigned me in a way (in a jest and otherwise).
I do relate to her, and I've been told we share certain traits, but it takes a second looking through this blog to see we are quite different people. The primary thread of connection is in experiences and reactions to them.
I will include an index of my analyses here at some point. The #Angela Posting tag is small enough at the moment to not really inconvenience those that want to have a read, but it would still be cleaner to have it all in one place.
I am, regardless, very fixated. Haven't scared anyone with it yet, I think, and at least one person finds it endearing-
So, I'll just continue.
I'd like to clarify, too, that I have my boundaries with this, and I'd ask to please do not bring forth to me sexual content about her. At all.
Sorry, I do not want to see it. It's not that I don't think there's any discussion to be had here, but 9/10 times it's just material without any thought, and the other 1/10 is disconcertingly off the mark.
Additionally, while one might assume this intensity would correlate with romance, I promise you it doesn't. I do not see her that way. Please do not make that kind of comment, it's just awkward ("your wife" and such).
I can't really comment on ships for a similar reason. She's an aroace queen to me. I won't shut it down, and you can do whatever- I simply do not find it appealing, so I can't engage with it in any meaningful manner. I do have an immediate negative reaction to rolangela because of the overabundance of "the girl and the boy HAVE to date" type of engagement with either character. It's maddening.
I am an angebinah QPR believer. I think there's something interesting to explore there regarding similar themes and imagery in both of them, with certain specific conflicts and contradictions.
Regardless-
As you can imagine, if you ever feel like talking about her, I am your gal. Hit me with your takes, your feelings, your thoughts, your questions- I adore her and I'm always happy to indulge.
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Fanart Library of Angelandria at 6356 files at the time of editing.
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a ser honesta todo este quilombo a veces me hace sentir menos argentina porque en vez del odio potenciandome posta estoy super deprimida y de muy mal humor ultimamente. ya va por encima de arruinarme la poca felicidad que el mundial me daba.
Entiendo muchísimo cómo te sentís, posta. Estos últimos días las redes fueron agotadoras y hubo momentos en los que parecía que abrir Twitter, TikTok o Instagram era encontrarse con alguien insultando a Argentina o inventando cosas sobre nosotres. Es normal que eso termine afectando el ánimo. Pero hay algo que aprendí hace tiempo: las redes sociales no son la vida real. El algoritmo siempre hace más ruido con el odio que con el cariño. Mientras unos pocos gritan, hay muchísima gente que simplemente sigue con su vida, o incluso nos tiene aprecio y no siente la necesidad de publicarlo todos los días.
De hecho, en medio de todo este bardo también vi cosas muy lindas. Vi latinos escribiéndonos para darnos ánimo o defendiéndonos por solidaridad latinoamericana, bangladesíes, chinos y personas de otros países alentando a Argentina, inmigrantes y turistas hablando con cariño de la gente que conocieron acá, afroargentinos y pueblos indígenas aportando matices cuando otros pretendían hablar por ellos. Eso también existe, solo que el odio siempre hace más ruido.
No dejes que un montón de desconocidos en Internet te convenzan de que tenés que sentir vergüenza de ser argentina. Argentina, como cualquier país, tiene una historia llena de luces y sombras. Tenemos episodios muy dolorosos que debemos seguir estudiando y discutiendo con honestidad, pero también tenemos motivos enormes para sentir orgullo. Yo, por ejemplo, pienso en el Juicio a las Juntas de 1985. Un país que acababa de salir de una dictadura decidió juzgar a los responsables en tribunales civiles por primera vez en la historia. Pienso en las Madres y Abuelas de Plaza de Mayo, que nunca dejaron de buscar memoria, verdad y justicia. Pienso en nuestra universidad pública, en nuestros científicos, en nuestros artistas, en la solidaridad que aparece cada vez que una comunidad atraviesa una crisis. Todo eso también es Argentina.
No les regalemos nuestra identidad a quienes solo nos conocen por un meme, por un tuit o por un partido de fútbol. Ser argentina no significa creer que nuestro país es perfecto, significa quererlo lo suficiente como para reconocer sus errores, valorar sus aciertos y no dejar que otros lo reduzcan a una caricatura. Ojalá esa chispa que sentís medio apagada ahora vuelva a encenderse. Porque, al final del día, ningún algoritmo puede decidir cuánto vale el lugar del que venimos.
Y esto además lo digo para todo el mundo: si alguien quiere desahogarse, hacer una pregunta sobre Argentina o simplemente charlar, puede escribirme por privado. No prometo tener todas las respuestas, pero sí prometo escuchar con respeto.
i didn't want to make another post about this topic bc i'm exhausted but i need to get this off my head or i'm gonna go insane (journal factory blew up). i also think there's an important reminder here for all latin americans, and information for people who actually want to learn about argentinian history.
a couple days ago i found out that a respected blog that's about how to create black characters without being racist (run by a black usamerican) jumped on the 'argentina is white' train. when replied to by people with data and sources by brown argentines and afroargentines, she responded by ignoring said sources, mentioning blanqueamiento and saying that people speaking spanish in her post was 'inaccessible':
and while it's true that we shouldn't deny the very real existence of blanqueamiento in our history, which is the main way we invisibilized our indigenous and black populations and their innumerable contributions to the foundation, culture and continued sovereignty of our country (and therefore erased them from our history books!), this blogger kept insisting on pushing bullshit numbers:
for all of her mentions of blanqueamiento, she continued ignoring a key part of it: the manipulation of the censuses by eliminating racialized categories from them. not to mention that even to this day there are racialized people who don't see themselves as such, generally as a current consequence of blanqueamiento as well (they don't know, they're not sure, etc.).
i'm not gonna get into the absolute insanity of the implication that 97% of our population has exclusive european heritage, because not only that is obviously bullshit to anyone who has ever set foot here, but there are also genetic studies that show that over half of argentina's population has amerindian heritage. but i guess we can't expect people from a country where phrenology-based race science is extremely prominent to understand that.
and when someone respectfully explained to her that she was misinformed and directed her to more info by linking some of cumbiamurguera's (who has mapuche ancestry!!) posts? this is her reply:
'welp i'm not talking about this anymore thanks for your contribution! i will proceed to completely ignore it and in fact keep talking about this but only with people who parrot what i'm saying!'
and if you had any doubt that this gringa is spouting xenophobic imperialist garbage under the guise of calling out racism:
(hmm... could it be that those white supremacist beliefs aren't held by the same people who criticize the imperial core... could it be that the prevalence of right-wing white supremacist governments and politics in latam is directly related to us interference and has been for decades... hmmmm........)
this is the reminder for all of latam that i mentioned at the beginning of the post: no matter which race they are, gringues will always be gringues FIRST. before they're black, before they're trans, before they're disabled, before they're leftist. they will speak for and over us, treat us like we're the ones we need to learn from them and do things their way because THEY know best, because manifest destiny is alive and well in their brains. how dare we speak our language in a post that's about us. how dare we assume we know our history better than they do.
you might think this is all obvious, but many of us have been over a decade in this yanqui-dominated website, speaking english and consuming their news, politics, media, etc. and not even the most antiimperialist of us is immune to absorbing that shit unknowingly. so it's always good to remember that we shouldn't try so hard to seek understanding nor approval from them. and i say this as someone who's made a wonderful friend from the usa here many years ago, but that's one person i trust to actually listen to me when i talk about argentina and latam.
people like the ones above, though? block and move on. speak your language(s). learn your history. participate in your culture. consume your own media. go outside and protest. read las venas abiertas i'm begging. resist imperialism no matter how bleak the situation is (and i'm from milei's argentina so i know about bleak lmao).
as for the racism? listen to the racialized people in your country. call out people in your life when you can. like i said before, learn your history and go out and protest. do research! exercise your critical thinking. if you can travel to other cities/provinces/states, don't just stick to tourist spots: interact with the locals and broaden your horizons. if you have kids or work with them, or simply have a chance to teach them something, take advantage of any opportunity you get to explain things their history books might not say. la campaña del desierto. la guerra de la triple alianza. domingo faustino sarmiento was a raging racist.
i know i seem like a hypocrite saying thinks like 'block and move on' and 'speak your language' when i'm making this post, but i remember how bc of this website i used to think lgbtq history = stonewall and black history = mlk, yet didn't even know who lohana berkins and maría remedios del valle were. and i know there are teens growing up here. and i'm writing this in english bc my other post was seen by lots of people in latam, not just spanish speakers. that said, lazy can't-copypaste-text-into-a-translator anglos can go fuck themselves.
if you're still reading this and you want to learn more about racialized people in argentina (from the source, not from an ignorant yank) then there are plenty of accounts you can follow. identidadmarron, negrasymarronas, lunfardatravel and afroslgbtiq.ar on instagram are good places to start. this post is long enough, so you can check out @cumbiamurguera's #afroargentines tag for tons of info and more accounts to follow.
Hi friends, since I apparently can’t catch a break
I was gifted a new bed frame and mattress, but had to return the frame after only one night of use(this is a long explanation but it wasn’t an act of malice) so I have now been downgraded graded to a boxspring and mattress on the floor.
Which is not a situation I would like to stay in.
So I would really appreciate some commissions or donations please! At least enough to get the cheapest bed frame I can find.
The mattress also won’t be usable long term with my chronic pain so I long for a mattress topper as well, but getting a bed frame is my first goal.
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the sex binary is socially constructed and not actually descriptive of any biological truth. you know that, right? it's important to me that you know that
i know people can be a little overzealous in describing political backslides ("this used to be the feminism website!!!" etc.) but it's disturbing to me how much incredulity i've gotten from other trans people as of late just for, like, saying that "biological woman" is neither a real category nor a phrase that should ever leave your mouth uncritically
i think people are starting to confuse class analysis with bioessentialism. like... no not all men do this, but Men as a constructed social class do do this. that's still okay to say. that is regular material analysis of the world around us.
This isn't an identity. Its a shorthand way of referring to who is subjected to transmisogyny and who is not. It's not something we are imposing on people, we're describing how this transmisogynistic society is imposing or nit imposing transmisogyny on people. It doesn't care if you don't identify with fem or masc, it only cares about what you were compulsarily assigned at birth. People who aren't transitioning away from being compulsorily assigned "male" at birth are simply not subject to transmisogyny by this society. If they are trans, they're still subjected to transphobia, but not transmisogyny.
The TMA/TME divide amongst enbies describes predominantly how two people, despite neither being femme or masc, are treated completely differently based on their assigned gender at birth.
Enbies who are TMA literally cannot attend the same events that enbies who are TME can, even if their presentation is functionally identical. They are banned in big bold letters on adverts, and if they're discovered, they get thrown out and called a rapist as the door slams shut behind them.
TMA enbies are never allowed to divorce themselves from their gender assignment in societies eyes, they're never allowed to "just" be enbies, take it from someone who presented as agender for many years. The only people who took that in good faith were one (1) TME and I was dating her. Everyone else treated me like an intruder while actively bending over backwards to accommodate TME enbies.
My introduction to transfeminism came when my coworkers who had been talking a big game of supporting "trans people" asked me after I came out to them "I know you said your pronouns are she/her, and your name is 'Kayla', but can I use they/them and call you 'Kay?' It's just more comfortable to me."
It came when my parents rejected me after my older sister outed me to them, but then accepted my trans brother with open arms.
It came when just a few weeks later a man in Stevensville Montana threw rocks at me while screaming bible verses.
I didn't learn about transmisogyny from Whipping Girl, I learned about it before I knew its name. I learned about it by being transmisogynized.
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So uh im a black trans lesbian and ive been trying to get a new job since the last one I had let me go for bullshit reasons, I was in a car crash in the work truck and wasnt the one driving but the guy who was didnt get canned, and I still havent found a new one yet and I need help paying rent since unemployment hasnt come in yet I need 1100$ by the 30th
Okay but genuinely even with my blog being reinstated I don't forgive staff and I don't want to stop talking about how antiblack and transmisogynistic they have been to me. They flagged my specific reblog of a post as mature, it's literally just Black people. This has happened multiple times but this is the most glaring instance of it. They marked @regresstrogen (my other blog) as mature; as soon as I started reblogging pictures of Black people there too. I have been outright called slurs and threatened countless times on this blog alone (I have used this account for less than a year) and every time it has taken them at VERY least 3–4 months to delete the post (or reply). Not even the blog, the post. And that's if they respond at all, which they usually don't. I have to type 200+ characters on a report to explain why calling me the N slur is bad only to not get a fucking response 80% of the time. Come wait with me on the latest instance here. 3–4 months?? They can nuke a trans or Black woman 10+ times in a fraction of that time.
Speaking of nukes, I received a termination email for "explicit content" after I had already deactivated this blog. It's not as bad as a regular nuke because I at least got to get my blog back with the new restoration feature, but the absurdity of it all just makes me feel so jaded. The fact that that's even possible and that they did it to a Black tgirl in an already vulnerable place (hence why she deactivated to begin with). They literally beat on my corpse because they wanted to make sure I know how much they hate me. I guess all those Black people I reblogged really got on their nerves. Literally tested a picture of my hand in my drafts. Got flagged as explicit immediately. I should be allowed to kill people with my sexually explicit bare hands.
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