#AE Musings for my personal posts, poems, thoughts, feelings, and otherwise unrelated to anything else. These are longer than one line at random throughout the day.
#Angela posting for uh posting about Angela. Ranging from small observations, opinions, to longer more analytical writing.
There might be some NSFW but I have not yet tagged any. It's extremely rare but still possible.
Not (properly) tagged posts are about a variety of things. Most prominent are of lighthearted topics, but there will be heavier and more important topics. You will see matters concerning transfeminism.
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What you find in this blog is terms of original posts is talking about thoughts I had, something I felt and wanted to express it, and sometimes, some kind of take on a piece of media (not as interesting as it may sound).
In terms of reblogs, it's whatever. Scroll for 10 seconds and you'll see.
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My ko-fi if you feel like being nice. Steam friend code 59507888.
Some colors under the cut. (Personal stuff and assorted things of other nature yet intrinsically the same)
You -can- call me Angela, it is my name, but if you find that confusing (considering the context of this blog), then you can simply address me by my url or by AE.
No, I don't kin her. The explanation is much simpler (she's simply very personally important) and yet extensive (I'd have to start from early life experiences to how I happened to develop as an adult). People, however, have kin assigned me in a way (in a jest and otherwise).
I do relate to her, and I've been told we share certain traits, but it takes a second looking through this blog to see we are quite different people. The primary thread of connection is in experiences and reactions to them.
I will include an index of my analyses here at some point. The #Angela Posting tag is small enough at the moment to not really inconvenience those that want to have a read, but it would still be cleaner to have it all in one place.
I am, regardless, very fixated. Haven't scared anyone with it yet, I think, and at least one person finds it endearing-
So, I'll just continue.
I'd like to clarify, too, that I have my boundaries with this, and I'd ask to please do not bring forth to me sexual content about her. At all.
Sorry, I do not want to see it. It's not that I don't think there's any discussion to be had here, but 9/10 times it's just material without any thought, and the other 1/10 is disconcertingly off the mark.
Additionally, while one might assume this intensity would correlate with romance, I promise you it doesn't. I do not see her that way. Please do not make that kind of comment, it's just awkward ("your wife" and such).
I can't really comment on ships for a similar reason. She's an aroace queen to me. I won't shut it down, and you can do whatever- I simply do not find it appealing, so I can't engage with it in any meaningful manner. I do have an immediate negative reaction to rolangela because of the overabundance of "the girl and the boy HAVE to date" type of engagement with either character. It's maddening.
I am an angebinah QPR believer. I think there's something interesting to explore there regarding similar themes and imagery in both of them, with certain specific conflicts and contradictions.
Regardless-
As you can imagine, if you ever feel like talking about her, I am your gal. Hit me with your takes, your feelings, your thoughts, your questions- I adore her and I'm always happy to indulge.
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Fanart Library of Angelandria at 6196 files at the time of editing.
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please help two brazilian trans women escape an abusive household
hi, everyone. the situation at home has gotten progressively worse, with my father turning physically abusive and breaking my nose a few weeks ago. Me and my gf need help to leave the house and rent a small place for ourselves, as well as pay for our meds and hrt. We are kind of in a desperate situation right now, and any amount would really help us.
I mean, real answer? I don't reblog 99% of the anti-racist posts that cross my dash because they all have this type of guilt-tripping on the end. I thought we agreed ten or fifteen years ago that we're not spreading that shit. I see plenty of posts I would love to reblog if they didn't all end with "but you won't reblog this and that proves you're actually racist" or words to that effect
Tears that are driven by white guilt are self-indulgent. When we are mired in guilt, we are narcissistic and ineffective; guilt functions as an excuse for inaction. Further, because we so seldom have authentic and sustained cross-racial relationships, our tears do not feel like solidarity to people of color we have not previously supported. Instead, our tears function as impotent reflexes that donât lead to constructive action. We need to reflect on when we cry and when we donât, and why. In other words, what does it take to move us? Since many of us have not learned how racism works and our role in it, our tears may come from shock and distress about what we didnât know or recognize. For people of color, our tears demonstrate our racial insulation and privilege.
I asked the woman of color I refer to in the opening of this chapter if I was missing anything in this list. This is her response:
Itâs infuriating because of its audacity of disrespect to our experience. You are crying because you are uncomfortable with your feelings when we are barely allowed to have any. You are ashamed or some such thing and cry, but we are not allowed to have any feelings because then we are being difficult. We are supposed to remain stoic and strong because otherwise we become the angry and scary people of color. We are only allowed to have feelings for the sake of your entertainment, as in the presentation of our funerals. And even then, there are expectations of what is allowed for us to express. We are abused daily, beaten, raped, and killed but you are sad and thatâs what is important. Thatâs why it is sooooo hard to take.
- White Fragility, Robin DiAngelo
I am asking you to deliberately seek out and engage with Black content creators. I am also asking you to notice when your racial guilt moves you to inaction, regard it as a problem worth solving, and solve it.
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As much as me and my fellow periphery sexuality sexgender marginalized comrades on here joke about how we sound homophobic when we stand against homonationalism which slaughters our people, it truly is a byproduct of homonationalists getting to define what being"pro lgbt" means. According to homonationalists, it's not bigoted to send gay and trans people in the periphery to the meat grinder and ruin their chances at civil rights to suck up to their own genocidal imperialist governments. It is, however, an unforgivable piece of bigotry to sympathize with how imperialized peoples stances in lgbt was shaped by violence of the imperialists
I mentioned in the past that the Draenei just have ableism going on and the writing barely gestures at it and doesn't get addressed (well it kinda does but doesn't actually, you know? they just "get together for a common goal"). I thought how everything just kind of makes noise and it must be a nightmare to be autistic in there, then I considered that they're hearing the space wind chime 24/7 and maybe that just killed them all off.
Baby space goat is born with autism and instantly explodes from the constant telepathic noise.
Help me and my couple to escape pinochetist nazi regime
If u want to help me (autistic teacher and artist) and my couple (teacher, poet, and writer) please check MATCH or Paypal
and make a donation, even $1 helps. If u can't donate money, you can send us something ( a mask to protect us from tuberculosis and covid for example) to our mailbox, or help with a reblog bc thats the only way to make this post circulate thus receiving help. And if you know of a country that helps political exiles, please comment or tag.
I currently (date 30 June 2026) have $558,21 dollars donated. You can check the old post here in my other blog.
The cost of a one-way flight ticket for two people is $1096.17 dollars.
If we wanted to migrate in a "tourist way/go to live way" we would need would $10.537 dollars or ⏠9.760,95 euros aprox to pay all the documents (including the passaport), the bank money I need to have to prove I deserve to migrate, the tickets, rent money I have to show, and all that. So I'm just hoping to have the money for the tickets only and not be trafficked in the process of leaving or killed before that.
Please, we need to migrate so help us to not die. This is no longer asking money to eat, this now is to not be tortured and disappeared. We can speak and read english even if not perfectly. If you know a country that allow political refugees and put less trouble to migrants, please comment.
I open a mail box so people that prefer to donate goods (like soap, shampoo, menstrual pads, detergent, tablets to keep water clean, heat patches for winter, N95 masks or similars, etc) can sent it in place of money, but (sadly) it can't be food because I have to pay to the border $39.13 for 1 kg to 500 kg of any food I could try to enter the country. I still don't know what to do about that because I have coeliac disease and flour is essential for survival. I have some rice flour, but I canât make bread with it or survive on it.
If you want to sent something, please dm me!
Help is welcomed, we are still here trying hard, I don't want us to die.
The whole story and History under the cut
In In August 2024, I was without electricity, phone or internet because of really bad storms with lots of lightning, rain and strong winds. We even have floods. On 25 May 2025, we had our first tornado in the south of the country. This has never happened before. Then spring and summer came and all caught fire throughout different regions a number of times. There were fires every week for months. Almost every day somewhere in the country. The global warming is part of the problem, but just a consequence.
To make things worst? We still live under the dictatorship constitution made during Pinochet's dictatorship installed by USA/The West, and its politicians and families, whom own everything here and pay the owners of internet to have bots, make fake news, terror campaings, etc ploted to make the country sink and put a pinochetist nazi as president: josĂŠ antonio kast.
The war of USA (operation condor) against South America lead to the new president of Chile be a chilean german pinochetist nazi (his father a nazi liutenant that used the ratlines with the help of the Vatican to escape after exterminating ppl all over europe, for example in germany, italy, france and soviet union) and is proud of his nazi family which also helped to exterminate chileans and anyone in Chile during Pinochet's dictatorship. He even is memeber of a fundation dedicated to the creator of the dictatorship constitution, pinochetist Jaime Guzman whom Kast loves deeply since his youth. Between his people there are torturers, nazis and neo nazis, a pinochetist nephew of a german pedo christian cultist (check Colonia Dignidad among many other cults), families of german colonialists that made genocide of natives at the south of Chile and Argentina between XIX and XX century, and still kill them today, they have slaves, are pedos that kidnap kids and teens, traffick babies, etc. All upper class from european background, upper class from Chile, as well the cops, agents, and military. Kast was a piece of shit since childhood, being part of the chilean version of the nazi youth and helped Pinochet, and this past decade helped to put Bolsonaro and Milei in power in Brazil and Argentina, as well far right presidents, ministers, and organisations all over the world.
He hates and wants to enslave South America, poc, women, children, workers, etc anyone that is not like him. He is proud of his nazi family and their work helping the Pinochet Dictatorship. He is a proud pinochetist and visits torturers that are in prison for crimes against humanity as well have such criminals among his people which, among many things, put rats inside the vaginas of women, trained dogs to rape people, opened mothers to steal the babies from their wombs, forced fathers to rape their daugthers, made kids eat shit with torns and trow their bodies all over the country, mutilated people and torture them in ways so monstrous that no one in the world told you so you all can keep living without fighting them.
My couple and I need to fly the country. We survived the ex president PiĂąera tortures and genocide in 2019/2020, we will not survive another extermination again.
We still unemployed even when we tried everything. They are closing all cultural areas and institutions (museums, schools, workshops, galleries, libraries, sites of memory that teach and keep the testimonies, artpieces, and work of resistance against dictatorship, institutions to find the tortured and dissappeared, etc), seeking to also eliminate our area of specialisation, including the teaching of how to read. I'm very gaunt, and in all honestly I can no longer work because of my disability. I'm even losing my hair and growing grayhair. Now getting a job in our areas is asking to be tortured and killed. We lost everything we lived for.
My health is getting even worst. Chronic pain, chronic fatigue, long covid, celiac disease and lactose intolerance. Being autistic and having c-PTSD as well depression and fibromyalgia doesn't help and the violence never ends.
As far as I'm concerned, I've been on my own all my life (abusive family, my father tried to kill my mother, brothers criminals and abusers, now I'm alone and homeless bc I left the storage room in which i was living). My only support is my couple that also helps me as a caregiver and takes care of an old abusive cultist mother which pay the basic bills. My couple is the only family I have. This means having less money bc i make the bills bigger and the pinochetist nazi is gonna eliminate the money that elderly people are pay by the state for being a mother and a widow which is the money that pays for food and water and a roof over our heads. The father has already died. The neighbours are violent.
My couple fears that we end up in the streets, homeless. I fear that we will die under the dictatorship of Kast bc that's what what this ppl do, specially his family and all the other upper class families. The neighbours are gonna snitch on us. Their mother told a family of cops and agents (primal agents of dictatorship here) that she is a communist even when she is not (she an iliterate cultish evangelical with far right ideas) so we have a target in the face thanks to that. In the last big dictatorship, people (including kids and teens) were taken from their houses and jobs (specially students, univeritaries, teachers and culture workers, for example which is all our labels basically) and most never returned, being disappeared. Others were tortured so much that they died or ended up disabled and traumatized for life.
Drawn made by Miguel Montecinos, ex political prisioner of Villa Grimaldi.
Check info about dictatorship in my blog under the tag condor operation
EDIT: Kast's former campaign manager said that the National Libertarian Party would be one of the parties in the government, in addition to the party founded by Kast. In other words, the Nazi-Pinochetists.
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whatâs the real story with argentina being a nazi haven, overblown stereotype or lib fabrication? or more an annoying rhetorical distraction from the fact that the real nazi haven was germany and that denazification simply did not happen?
I mean there *were* cases of nazis being smuggled into brazil, argentina, chile, and paraguay through illegal escape routes colloquially referred to as ratlines. That is a thing that did happen.
However, the way americans in particular seem to latch onto this fact to dismiss any latin american that pisses them off, either in a "well whatever your country gave refuge to nazis" sense, or in a "I'm directly implying your family were escaped nazis" sense (another example I remember seeing once was a post about US imperialism in latin america where a yankee replied that OP had no business bitching about imperialism because she was probably "a white brazilian called Helga or something") is a bit ironic to me, considering that:
The vast majority of german immigrants to these countries in the 20th century were jewish refugees fleeing the nazis
The US took in thousands more nazis after ww2 than the entirety of Latin America combined
A lot of the nazis that *did* escape to latin america did so with the direct help of US intelligence agencies
Nazis that escaped to the US were treated as valuable anti-soviet assets, and many of them were given cushy jobs by the US government. Most of the nazis who escaped to latin america spent their entire lives hiding from the authorities under false identities, and those who were discovered were extradited or jailed
So americans in particular thinking they have any right to reduce latin american countries to "nazi havens" when talking about them is just plain xenophobic jingoism
the specific thing with argentina was started by spruille braden, then usa embassador to argentina, as opposition to the perĂłn candidacy, accusing him of being an axis collaborator because a perĂłn government would hinder usa interests in the region. braden later went on to be involved in the 1954 guatemalan coup amongst other things
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I'll feel guilty for being jaded, then I look behind me, and I look at the future, and it's pretty reasonable. If you want nicer vibes you came to the wrong person.
There's a secret third one actually. There's the one that acknowledges you got shit going on, and wants you to be vulnerable with them so they can take care of you.
The problem with this is that it's naive at best and selfish at worst. Unless you can take at least -some- responsibilities for me for some time, I can't do that. I have to clock in, I have bills to pay, errands to run, food to cook, spaces to clean, and a whole granny to watch after. I haven't had a whole day for myself in 4 years. I -can't- have a day for myself unless someone else covers for me, and obviously nobody who can do it wants to do it, and nobody who wants to is able to.
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