#AE Musings for my personal posts, poems, thoughts, feelings, and otherwise unrelated to anything else. These are longer than one line at random throughout the day.
#Angela posting for uh posting about Angela. Ranging from small observations, opinions, to longer more analytical writing.
There might be some NSFW but I have not yet tagged any. It's extremely rare but still possible.
Not (properly) tagged posts are about a variety of things. Most prominent are of lighthearted topics, but there will be heavier and more important topics. You will see matters concerning transfeminism.
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What you find in this blog is terms of original posts is talking about thoughts I had, something I felt and wanted to express it, and sometimes, some kind of take on a piece of media (not as interesting as it may sound).
In terms of reblogs, it's whatever. Scroll for 10 seconds and you'll see.
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My ko-fi if you feel like being nice. Steam friend code 59507888.
Some colors under the cut. (Personal stuff and assorted things of other nature yet intrinsically the same)
You -can- call me Angela, it is my name, but if you find that confusing (considering the context of this blog), then you can simply address me by my url or by AE.
No, I don't kin her. The explanation is much simpler (she's simply very personally important) and yet extensive (I'd have to start from early life experiences to how I happened to develop as an adult). People, however, have kin assigned me in a way (in a jest and otherwise).
I do relate to her, and I've been told we share certain traits, but it takes a second looking through this blog to see we are quite different people. The primary thread of connection is in experiences and reactions to them.
I will include an index of my analyses here at some point. The #Angela Posting tag is small enough at the moment to not really inconvenience those that want to have a read, but it would still be cleaner to have it all in one place.
I am, regardless, very fixated. Haven't scared anyone with it yet, I think, and at least one person finds it endearing-
So, I'll just continue.
I'd like to clarify, too, that I have my boundaries with this, and I'd ask to please do not bring forth to me sexual content about her. At all.
Sorry, I do not want to see it. It's not that I don't think there's any discussion to be had here, but 9/10 times it's just material without any thought, and the other 1/10 is disconcertingly off the mark.
Additionally, while one might assume this intensity would correlate with romance, I promise you it doesn't. I do not see her that way. Please do not make that kind of comment, it's just awkward ("your wife" and such).
I can't really comment on ships for a similar reason. She's an aroace queen to me. I won't shut it down, and you can do whatever- I simply do not find it appealing, so I can't engage with it in any meaningful manner. I do have an immediate negative reaction to rolangela because of the overabundance of "the girl and the boy HAVE to date" type of engagement with either character. It's maddening.
I am an angebinah QPR believer. I think there's something interesting to explore there regarding similar themes and imagery in both of them, with certain specific conflicts and contradictions.
Regardless-
As you can imagine, if you ever feel like talking about her, I am your gal. Hit me with your takes, your feelings, your thoughts, your questions- I adore her and I'm always happy to indulge.
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Fanart Library of Angelandria at 6356 files at the time of editing.
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the over saturation of isekai leading to "subversions" of the expected tropes that themselves because oversaturated has lead to some highly specific subgenres. i know of like 4 "vrmmo where the protag picks a build that everyone thinks sucks but actually has untapped potential and also has a girl avatar against their will for some reason"
the four im thinking of are "Only Sense Online", "VRMMO de Summoner Hajimemashita", "Blade Skill Online: Crushing the Competition with My Abysmal Stats, Useless Class, and Garbage Weapon!", and "I've turned into a bishoujo, but I chose to be an online games addict!"
i also recall a fifth where the build the protag uses is based around fishing but i cant remember the name or find it. 4 is crazy as it is though.
fwiw i only really keep up with only sense online out of these. the protagonist, Yun, has slowly accepted things like her younger sister calling her oneechan and other ways of being treated like a girl. less forcefem and more begrudgingly accepted fem.
been thinking about this and i think the surprising frequency of this set up speaks to three desires. obviously one is to be a girl, thats a given for gender manga. the second is for the idealized vrmmo that's a fully simulated world that never came to be (and likely never will) to be realized, which is also standard for fiction about such games. the third is that people in mmos will be nice to you if you pick a fun but suboptimal playstyle, which is clearly the most unrealistic desire here.
Flashback to last year of school in art class having to do a self-portrait but with Stuff that represents us rather than our actual face (so, like, a friend made his silhouette with cables and stuff) and I didn't do that.
It passed, though. The prof made an interesting expression. I remember she asked me about it but there was another classmate submitting hers and I would've died if I had to talk with anyone present, so I never did.
It was a person being torn from the middle of the face by hands coming from the sides of the frame.
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sometimes I see posts like this and wonder what this post must be like for people who don’t play mtg. this joke must have an entirely different texture if you don’t know who this man is and what he has done to me personally
T_T I wish bathroom-related disabilities weren’t still today the subject of so much baseless ableism and hatred.. When you learn that kind of shame, it can kill you. People think “it’s too embarrassing to be seen buying an enema, or to go to the ER and need a manual disimpaction. I’ll just wait this one out” and then the bowel perforates and that can kill you in no time at all. And a LOT of it is just because of the meaningless stigma surrounding something as universal and basic as.. peeing and pooping?? That’s insane! Everyone does it! Get over yourself and stop perpetuating shame!! Knowing someone has to wear a diaper will not kill you, but the embarrassment that person feels might just kill them!!
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people really say things like "when will people stop using discord" as if it's an inevitability whenever discord rolls out a bad feature and it makes no fucking sense to me. personally I won't stop using discord unless another chat platform comes out that meets all of these criteria:
it lets us be plural. I cannot fucking stress how much of a necessity this is. there is no other chat platform I know of that lets us express ourselves as individuals using the same account. pluralkit isn't perfect but there's nothing else like it anywhere else
it has a robust api so that users can develop bots to execute functionality not natively provided by the platform itself
it lets me organize discussions into different categories so I can opt in or out of topics
all my friends are on it (THIS IS WHY PEOPLE KEEP USING DISCORD!!!!!!)
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In every relationship or friendship worth having, there will be inevitable moments of awkwardness, anger, miscommunication, frustration, or impatience. It’s how each person decides to navigate that that determines how much they care about one another. If you internalize those moments as an overarching statement that speaks louder than all the good times you had with this person, you are practically shooting yourself in the foot. If you decide to walk away at natural moments of friction, either that person didn’t matter all that much to you, or you do care but elect to self-sabotage all moments of connection because you fear abandonment or negative reactions from people you care about. Either way this is unsustainable and guarantees a lifetime of loneliness.
