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hi angels welcome to audreys secret tumblr!!1!1 im here to be the glow in your computer screen

my friends from outside of school made a surprise stop at my house today after an awful shift at work and they gave me a bouquet of flowers and a gift bag full of dark chocolate (my favorite) and a comedically large lollipop and a white monster and a new poster

because they knew i was having a really bad month

then we ate tacos in my backyard and danced in my room

why do I have so many friends(?) on my private stories and seeing my personal shit if you ignore me irl and have never talked to me first?

my spark is so gone

like so so gone i feel like a candle that was forgotten on a windowsill for months

Today I went to my favorite vintage shop where I used to buy their bags of old charms/ mismatched earrings and make them into crafts

And the store owner caught me looking at them and so I told her how I used to make stuff with the old charms so she asked me "why'd you stop? whats stopping you from making more?"

And I couldn't help but just look at her for a second and really think about the last time i made something with my own hands that I was proud of

there was a time in 4th grade where I was crying to my mom because I wasnt invited to a slumber party that every girl in my grade was invited to

now im a senior in highschool working all day and staying up all night thinking about how I saw on snapmap that best friends all stayed the night at my one friends house

and I wasnt invited, and none of those girls talked to me that entire day

I know ive always had a fomo problem but these are my best friends but I dont even know if i can call them that anymore

A tight friend group of friends who got ur back but no spouse

OR

Spouse who will never let you down but you have no friends

i shouldn't be so raw on here what am I thinking

i need to spend more time in the oven