I wonder if she knows how much I really do think of her still. Its been years but something in me still adores you. I would take every hit just for you.

what do i do with all this anger

im thinking to myself, what do i want from this life? main answer has been for the longest happiness, but thats asking for a lot, so at the least just be content. next is what will bring me more happiness or what will help with my unhappiness. next this is people make me so unhappy, or maybe the problem is i attract the wrong people and things/situations with them lead me to unhappiness. but does that mean i should just be alone? i have never been bothered by my own company and the “loneliness” at the end of the day i know my company is the best company. but idk im rambling and i cant clear my head at all. ill come back to this later