Angel

First of all I absolutely love TNOH, I don't remember in which chapter I started to follow the fic but it's a pretty long time and I never really commented in ao3 so I have a lot of feelings involving this. Besides the fact that TNOH has one of my favorites tropes in all fiction (reincarnation/time travel (yes, chrono stone is one of my favs)) without being too flanderized or boring is really impressive and you have my honest admiration for that, and this fic can easily be my favorite in all IE fics in ao3 (and I read at least 300 fics and know many authors by the writing style) so yeah, I love this that much.

Secondly, about the story itself, I love how you portrayed the trauma of having all these memories since the childhood to Hiroto and how his relationship are affected by it is so interesting, he is also one of my favorites characters (only losing to OG Shiro and OG Kiyama) because yk daddy issu-, ahem, ok being more serious now, your writing really catches me and I hope that's means something -I think that I'm going too far from the original point, I will just stop here-.

And for the third topic, the 10 chapter made me so excited that I needed to cooldown myself to finish to read, the consequences of the ban hissatsu, the metaphors, all the ichihoses situation and the kappas in the end got me smiling like a criminal to my cellphone. And idk if it was your intention, but the kappa thing that you hopefully will bring back in the next chapter remembered me that one fic when OG Kiyama and Kogure meets Tatsuya and Hiroto cuz the kappas, but if was not, cool coincidence. I will reread all the TNOH again cuz I'm probably forgetting almost everything that I wanted to talk, so you will see me again pretty soon talking anything that I forget :D

So yeah, idk if this will makes sense, but I love your fic and have *feelings* about that

Don't worry about it, English isn't my first language either.

First of all, thank you for loving TNOH. It feels amazing when people show they like my fic. TNOH was written because I liked the tropes that you also liked, so I'm glad to see you're enjoying it. And 'without being too flanderized or boring' is the best compliment I've ever gotten(seriously) because it's what I wanted to convey when writing TNOH or any fic.

Despite not liking the writing of the Ares & Orion series, I really put importance on keeping key characteristics of each character. (That's the beauty of 'What if?' plots personally.)

Secondly, yes, trauma. I thought there would be no way a child(or anyone, really) wouldn't be traumatized by Kiyama Hiroto's memories. So much insanity happens in OG and we were all kind of gaslighted to treat those insanity as normal. (Off topic, but my favorite OG characters are Aphordi, Fubuki, and Fuyuka.)

I mainly write every fics for self indulgence, so it truly means everything when you say my writing caught your eye.

Lastly, I'm glad all those scenes you've mentioned in chapter 10 excited you to that extent. And also, I have read that fic about OG Hiroto & Kogure meeting Ares/Orion Tatsuya & Hiroto long ago. Though it wasn't my intent ro make it similar, it's cool you thought of that fic. Rereading TNOH again? That's about 146,294 words now.

A bit of context: this comic takes place quite a long time ago. They were younger and still figuring out how to make things work in the circus. The first version of their outfits wasn’t comfortable, since their bodies are different, which led to the redesign and custom-made clothes for all of them after this incident.

Besides the outfit changes, you’ll also get a small spoiler about Pierrot’s rule! Also! Thank you @destinysquaredfor helping me correct some poses and adjust a few things in the comic!

I’m going to preface this that I mean you no anger or malice, anon. I try my best to assume nowadays that people are using translators since a lot of my followers with TFC are not from America nor speak English natively— and that’s awesome! Genuinely, I think to be more aware of the wholeness of the world has helped me appreciate all of us who live on it. You even said yourself you don’t mean your ask maliciously, and I appreciate that.

But it makes me want to take a moment and say I’m not trying to sound like a bitch even though I’m probably gonna sound like a bitch, and its just because I’m trying to be firm and careful with my words.

This blog has existed for about 15 years. I made this blog when I was in high school, when I was young and silly wanted to talk about fandom things and write my fanfiction. It has always been my safe little corner of the internet, the place I could hang out when I was stressed, scared, angry, unsure.

It’s the place that helped me get through when I forcibly removed myself from my parents’ household and joined the military (despite the fact I hate the military as an entity and those four years were traumatizing enough). It’s the place that helped me meet my wife, my girlfriend, my friends that support me even when I make it hard because I’m the kind of person who takes on a lot of pain and effort for the people around me. It’s the place that helped me deal with the loss of my little brother several years ago, helped me deal with the grief and existentialism that sometimes gets so bad its really hard to focus on anything else.

So all of that to say is this: this blog is not a TFC blog, this is MY blog. This is MY corner of the world, and it just so happens that in MY corner of the world I am seeing my government kill innocent people, seeing them detain and rip apart entire families based on the color of their skin, the sound of their voice, or just because they can. I have people whom I love who are accosted by this fear every single day, afraid for their own safety or the safety of their neighbors. I have so little in the way to help them— I don’t have money, I don’t live somewhere I can protest, I have very few things I can do while I’m watching my country fall into some level of chaos I cannot escape from across a LOT of my social media where I continue to feel more and more helpless and afraid that suddenly I’ll just stop hearing from one of my friends. I’m scared, always a little scared, and always feeling a little helpless.

So if I reblog a post on occasion to spread awareness and help other people who need the information, and if I use my own personal blog because that’s the ONE place I have where I feel like my voice matters, then I am well within my rights to do it. I’ve even made sure those kind of posts are tagged ‘not tfc’ so people can block them if they truly want, which I shouldn’t have to do in the first place but I do it to try and be kind and understanding.

There will be an official tumblr blog for The Freak Circus at some point soon, when I’m done creating it myself, and I can promise that there will be no content besides The Freak Circus and information pertaining to the game, the lore, updates, merchandise, official announcements, ect.

But until then this is still my blog, it’s one of the few places I have online that I do feel safe in some form where I can be myself, and I am not going to let anything take that from me.

I do believe everyone is allowed to be in a space where they don’t have to be exposed to these horrible things constantly— but my blog is still my own space, and never once have I tried to claim this to be an official blog in itself. I speak for and help Neko as best as I can, and I have taken a lot of tasks on as a friend and a fan to help him, become his social media manager which I am genuinely happy to be, but this blog is still my own space.