Andy Levareq

Two cuts, blades swung both sides

Three scrapes, to mind, body and the soul

Four times it hurts, pain is an old friend

An internal war, stretched out far

Do you still love me with body full of scars?

I have faith and I have trust

Please listen to my melody, I'm breathing in dust

Scared, cornered, lonely

You were my saviour only

I yearn for our forever paradise

Where our cries would be memories

Ostrasized by my lover

I peek over the cold shoulder with teary eyes

Want you to travel from distant to hand's reach

Warmth is what I feel

Would you see through my disguise

Disgusting as it is, pull me from myself

My shadows keep me silent

Let my unheard wallows reach to your heart

I wonder am I been in hell is it within me,

I've been walking through the purgatory

Hurt and hurt, again and more

Still I wish to love and be loved instead.

From my unnecessary desires

And useless needs

Rather I'll be mildly cold in my sweater

With songs flowing in my ears

I just want to be free

From the constraints of society

And not wear people pleasing mask for once

Rather I want to be high on lilies

And ride the scooty at 50

I just want to be free

From the mortal desires

And that fries sprinkled with peri peri

Rather I'll pet that dirty puppy at the sidewalk

And be amazed by the sky and cumulus clouds

I just want to be free

From inflating expectations

And that cool looking jacket I wanna buy

Rather I'll dream about my crush

And just do enough workout to stay fit

I just want to be free

From my pessimistic thoughts and emotions

And anxiety about things out of my hand

Rather I'll try and be better

And make a few people happy along the way.

Black is it's color

But it's not what it seems

Irony that's what it is

There's beauty in the darkness

Your aura is midnight

Yet the soul is pure white

Fortified and hardened

Waiting to be broken

There's beauty in the darkness

You try and time goes by

The shadows grow visceral

Glimmer your rays

And let that core burn bright

There's beauty in the darkness

You eclipse in low light

Trying to glimmer the world

Disappearing again in the shade

You queen of the night

There's beauty in the darkness.

Syringes stuck in the wrist

Were any tears shed?

Through sickness and health

I had me myself and I,

Counting my manual breaths

Passing minutes and hours

Same place irrelevant time

Hope it ends, just got to survive

That past is long gone

Times changed and you moved on

The disease has despawned

But when I look at pictures

The body shiver and eyes shed tears

I reach beside your bed,

On your pale skin my fingers tread

As if the dream is in shambles

Sickened physique and weakened smile

Wish I could've lent you my shoulder

To ease off the pain

And an early older together.

The day you wore this dress

I saw it in yours eyes

And my heart said,

Yes, a thousand times yes

For you my love,

Whatever it takes

- Andy Levareq, Reflection of peace.

I sit gently in the lavender garden

Under the moon of peace

The air is brisk, the scent is hazy

Butterflies fly in pairs

And my fingers write a poetry

I write your name

And it's complete.

I am infinite

My soul has become your psyche

Now I'm devoid of all emotions

Because only emotion I feel is you

I realise that one lifetime won't be enough

To get enough you

To do enough for you

I'll chase you in afterlife and beyond

And in next lifetime,

I'll fall in love with you again.

And pain is all you've known

I drew butterflies around your scars

To come knocking up on your door

You'd keep it open on purpose,

I propose let's dive in a black hole

Step in through the event horizon

And get stretched out towards the singularity

I hope, we arrive at a different universe

Where death has given us an another chance

And there we would live for ourselves

But also, to be in love with each other

To see one more rising sun on the horizon

After laying under the crescent moon

Even if the distance between the night moon and the morning moon changes, the love is the same for both of them.

Nothing feels good when you are gone and nothing feels okay when you are not here.

She makes my arms feel its so useless to do literally any other work except holding her in them.

- Andy Levareq, need one more.