the most Child Emperor urge i have is to shout "BOOORRIINGGG!!!" when i have to witness something i dont like for too long

I bottle everything up for others comfort.

I am trying. Truly. I'm doing my best, I hope that's enough.

I can physically feel the sadness in my body and i just want to be happy for once

𝐈 𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐚𝐠𝐨𝐧𝐢𝐳𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐬𝐢𝐦𝐮𝐥𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐞𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐥𝐲 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞 𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐚𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐥

Mental illness is the most isolating thing in the world. You’re completely on your own in a black sea of nothing but pain.

God I wish i knew how it feels to be the first choice for once, to have someone look and choose you in a crowd of people. Only watching people get so easily what you desire is getting tiring.