Ana Bee 💕

Aaannndd I'm back! 😂 (to writing I mean) Soo, it's been months since I last blogged about anything (online). I still write though, in my diary...scratch that, my "journal". I always had that thought that diaries were for secret feelings for someone you had to keep deep down because if they knew it would be the end of the world. 😂 Gosh, crushes, puppy loves, MUs.. All of which I thought were pretty complicated when I was in high school. Then, life happened and sh*t started to get really complicated. I mean REALLY. 😂 Anyway, the purpose of this blog is to kill time and help me decide if I should go out with my friends or just spend the rest of my Sunday evening locked up in my room with food, movies and (of course) wifi without caring about the world.. At this point, (and by the time I finish this blog) I think the latter sounds sooo much better. HAHA! Kidding aside, I started writing (technically typing) because I wanted to ask you guys a very important question.. Here it is.. How are you? Have you asked yourself that question lately? With all that's happening or has happened to you since you made that new year's resolution last New Year's Eve down to all that summer escapades you and your family/friends experienced, How are you? You see, I'm asking you how you are because it's important to check back on ourselves every once in a while. Are we still on the right track, are we happy, are we moving forward and still staying positive? These are some of the questions we should contemplate at. That's why alone times are important too :)) These questions help us evaluate ourselves and push us to be more productive in what we do. It reminds us that life is happening and we need to be ready for it. Like I always say, things that are bound to happen will happen. But it's still good to be prepared for it, that type of thing.. There should be balance between enjoying life and being serious about it too.. Last night was one of my "down days". I was in that feeling empty and tired of life moment (you guys probably get this once in a while too). I was talking to a good friend over the phone and some of his words were "hindi ka na bata. Wag mo na isipin ang sasabihin ng ibang tao. Hindi ka na dapat nattakot. Wlang mangyayari sa hiya hiya mo na yan". Etc etc. Mejo lipad ang isip ko last night and I honestly didn't understand or remember most of our conversation. (If you're reading this, sorry for not paying attention haha ✌🏻️😂) True enough, it's easier said than done. But, he was right. I was too scared. To try things out. To be in an awkward situation. To not think for a moment and just do. I was too afraid of getting hurt again that I backed out immediately the moment I feel like I was letting someone in. I was too scared of things getting complicated that when it does, i shut it down and pretend nothing happened. I realized this was a pattern of mine for the last year and a half 😂 pero what can I do? Mahirap ipilit eh :) Eventually, I'll get there. I won't be afraid anymore. I will take risks, and I will conquer the world (char 😂). Sabi nga ng bestfriend ko "the higher the risk, the higher the return" (shoutout to Maica Ylagan who is currently super busy with her term paper and will be celebrating her birthday on the 28th, Advance happy birthday besis! You're doing a great job with school btw 😉🤓😘) As for now.. I'm okay. I'm closer from where I was 6months ago. I have met a lot of promising people who eventually and surprisingly became a huge part of my life. People who I know I can trust and I can count on during my down days. I'm embracing the time I have for myself and using it to help me be a better and improved version. I'm using this time to learn to loosen up and be brave. I'm using this time to enjoy being 24. I'm using this time to catch up with old friends and spend more time with my loved ones. I'm preparing myself for the future; for my future. My future life. My future Love. ❤️ Truth is, things are going to get more complicated as we grow older to make us wiser. This is just the beginning. And this is nothing compared to what we're about to face in the future. Hang in there okay? We'll get through this! You'll get through this 💪🏻 And so again I ask, How are you sweetie? 😉

Valentines salubong with ze trowpa. 😂 #UPfair #HappyValentinesDay #vday2016

Pre-valentines with the lolos and lolas 👴🏻👵🏻 #KanlunganNiMaria #GrowOldWithYou #mayForever #givingback #TBS ❤️

It's so fluffy I'm gonna diee 😍

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I'm inlove. ❤️

Loving the staircase! 👌🏻

Happy 3rd birthday Alexa Margaux! We love you! ❤️💋🎁🎉🎂

"I woke up one day and I got tired of crying, and breaking my own heart. I kept thinking how much you hurt me in the past and that there are so many reasons why I shouldn't get back with you anymore. I'm okay now, and I hope you're doing fine."

Dinner with the banapplenation. 👭👭😂😂 #GAMYBZ #missyouazee #whereyouatgles

Last shift for the week selfie!! :)) 💪🏻👋🏻

Red for L❤️VE. Haha. 😂 #selfiesunday