qimir enthusiast

the last time I reblogged this post right before I got a great job, in a permanent work-from-home position, with benefits, retirement, and a salary literally 3x what I was making before, doing something I really like. 

So you know. 

it may be that they don’t have the craziest or the most astounding backgrounds. choi woong was raised by the most loving parents in the world who own a restaurant. kook yeonsoo struggled with debt, but grew up with her grandmother. the two of them were young when they met, they didn’t have all the exaggerated and wild stories that usually come along in a kdrama storyline. they were simply high schoolers who lived their own lives.

so when they finally did stumble into each other’s lives, we saw the progression of them falling for each other. i don’t even know if it was a crush, but more like a subconscious one. one of those moments when you glance back one again and realize that you have fallen for them. that’s what kook yeonsoo and choi woong captured under the rain. it was so simple, yet beautifully written.

then comes the smaller moments. the ones that are built on top of each other. the way that choi woong carried yeonsoo’s backpack for her as they walked to school. the way that yeonsoo kept woong’s little note that wrote “let’s go outside” on it. the way that woong packed dinner for yeonsoo while she worked at the convenience store. the way that yeonsoo would touch woong’s forehead because he frowned in his sleep. the way that they always promise to make their way back to each other. the way that “let’s go eat” means that they have made up to the both of them. these are the moments, the type of love that we crave to experience. so simple, so small, but the most meaningful.

we can relate to these characters because they embody the different feelings and emotions that we experience when we are in love, whether it’s how woong is the kindest and softest character ever, yet he can also be so petty and hold a grudge for years. it could also be the way yeonsoo’s walls are always so high and she always is on guard, but once she lets someone in, she becomes one of the most loving people ever. take the cherry blossom scene for example, it’s those little moments.

the way the two of them intertwine is very endearing and warms my heart. from the outside, it looks like they just find joy in pushing each other around, messing with each other and all. they like to say they hate each other, but you see, love and hate walks a thin line. when they meet each other in the middle, they click perfectly. like one never existed without the other. they help each other become better people, not in an unattainable way, but in a realistic, step by step kind of way.

so when they break up, we automatically try to figure out who to blame it on. it’s natural for us to do that because it makes us feel better. in the beginning it was yeonsoo’s fault, she was the one who had broken up with woong, left him alone to deal with the aftermath, and walk away from it all. then, for the first time, we heard yeonsoo’s point of view. we saw her struggle, her reason, and the pain she endured and hid away. so then, we blamed woong for not being able to see through her.

the truth is,

they struggled within themselves. woong and yeonsoo needed a redo. a second try. and i think that within themselves, they secretly knew it then too. because they are the only ones for each other: soulmates i would say. but not in the star crossed lovers type of way, because we saw that love couldn’t hold them together forever. soulmates in more of a “i promise i will always run back to you” type of way. but through that, they also need to acknowledge each other’s inner feelings, grow, and communicate together.

it all feels so real.