Overthinking
I am an anxiety riddled, emotional, neurotic, head case. I’m jealous of someone from almost a decade ago. I know I have no right to be, I made a mess that put us in a bad place. And I can never apologize enough. It always sits in the back of my mind. But still you talk to her, and I have no room to tell you not to. I look through those messages because I don’t trust her. She scares me. Not because I think she’s prettier than me or that she has a better body than me. But I fear that she’ll always have feelings for you. The fact that there are deleted messages, that what she says is flirty. I wish you could see it. I wish it didn’t hurt my feelings. You guys have this bond, it seems like you’re closer than we are. I hate her, I hate her condescending comments about me, I hate her face. Immature I know but here I am. ugh.
